saya anti kamu

Assalamualaikum

First of all, this post is not addressed to any human. It's Ramadhan right? no hatred feeling please. :)
but it is about a little creature. well, usually i love little things like little fingers of babies, barbie's tea cups plus the garments, sweets and lollipops etc. because of their cuteness of being little. But this one, i'm sorry I couldn't give any part of my love towards it.

Well, I first met this creature in the Tom and Jerry Show. As everyone noticed, Jerry, the little creature always won in any fight with Tom, the cat. Tom is a bully, yeah I know...but Jerry is a BIG bully. *tak padan badan kecik, heh!* And, usually it was Jerry that messed with Tom first. Poor Tommm, bad Jerry!

Lucky that this little creature appeared on Mickey M**** show in a better personality. I didn't really follow this show, but this little creature played the 'good-guy' role, if I'm not mistaken. Hurmm. no comment.

Then, it was in the year 1999 or 2000 when I first met this little creature, face-to-face. I was jumping on the bed with my sister when suddenly we saw it crawling behind the closed door. And, we were screaming like crazies. Yup, like crazies. Then....I forgot what happened next.

Next, after a few years after the incident, which was in 2008 (when I was in Form 5). My dorm was at the ground floor, with my locker stood at the edge of the dorm, right next to the window. It was always filled with food at the bottom part of the locker. However, the doors of the locker couldn't be closed properly, leaving a   small passage for this little creature. And, yeah, this little creature became a regular visitor to my locker. I still remember how mean it was when it bite all boxes of my Dutch lady milk. And the next day it bite my dates. It was in Ramadhan. Im sure it is. Not only that, it bite my baju kurung, and the worse part is, I only realized the torn part while in class (prep malam) when I was wearing that baju kurung. See? Dia sangat jahat, okay!

The story of this little creature didn't stop there. In early 2010, it attacked my room in my college. It bite my bed sheet, my begs, my clothes, etc. I threw quite a number of my clothes as most of them got holes! Not only that, it peed and pooped on my bed, in my closet..see? how cruel it is!

And a few weeks ago, it attacked my kitchen in my home in Jogja. It gave holes to the plastics of the flour, scattering all the spices inside the cupboard and caused us such a great loss. Most of those spices were imported from Malaysia and they were limited. Again, it pooped. But, alhamdulillah it was busted.

A few days ago it attempted to attack again. I saw it twice, running into the kitchen. But last night, Baby saw it crawled into the kitchen again. Thanks to Baby that she set up the trap. Before midnight, it was caught and for sure, it will be sentenced to death.

And that is how "Saya Anti Kamu, Encik Tikus!"

food for a soul

Bismillah..
Assalamualaikum.

It's a beautiful Saturday. It was too beautiful that I overslept. I woke up at 7.04 am. Ashamed and shocked.
But I have reason for that. I was preparing the salad for our breakfast at 12 am/1 am so that we'll be eating the salad sejuk-sejuk on the next morning. That night, I was alone in our small kitchen, with scratching sound at the ceiling and that made me like having a recurrent heart attack. If cicak yang scratch-scratch, I don't really mind. but if it was, you know..the creature with bau-bau bacang dengan hamster but with long tail and usually grayish black in colour. Oh, my. I could cry.

So, I woke up. it was 7.04am! What I got in my mind is "hey, you kena amek gambar untuk MATTA weyhhh" and MATTA will be started at 7.30am. Oh, my! I rushed. Took bath in a rush, but completely, had breakfast (the salad), called taxi. and yadaaa at around 8 we left our Raudhah (our home)

MATTA stands for Majlis Tahfiz and Tilawah Al-Quran. But this really genius girl didn't bring her tafsir. and as been told early, there will be ceramah about Al-Quran, she once again acted like a genius by not bringing her notebook. Super genius and yup, it was me. So, I was like okay, have I really prepared myself for the ilmu? have I?

So, I listened and tried to concentrate. First, it started with Quran reciting by a tahfiz, a husband of my senior. *jealous with the newlyweds*. And then, the ceramah began. It was about Al-Quran.The main importance of Al-Quran to us. To every human. As recited in Quran,

Al-Baqarah: 2

This is the Book; in it is guidance sure, without doubt, to those who fear Allah;

And, I was touched when the ustaz told us about 4 types of human confronting Al-Quran
1. Human that the light from Quran is blocked by anger
2. Human that the light from Quran is blocked by desire duniawi
3. Human that the light from Quran is neither blocked by anger nor desire.
4. Human that the light from Quran diffuse into his/her heart.

I was really touched with the 4th one which is the best one. The ustaz gave us an example. An icon. Allahyarhamah Ustazah Yoyoh. A mother with 13 children. A teacher in a few places. An a'bid that recited Quran about 3 juzu' per day. And, on 21st May, she had her last breath with the last kalimah "Laa ilaha illallah..". Not only that, 2 days before she was gone, she SMSed a few of her friends. a long one. The content is, she was doubtful with her position in the Hereafter. She compared herself with Khadijah, Aisyah', Ummu Sulaim, Asma' Abu Bakar. Those were the among greatest Sahabiahs of Rasulullah. She felt very tiny compared to them. But, subhanallah, she met her ajal with the holy words. The 'kesaksian' Laa ilaha illallah.." and during reciting Quran.

I compared myself with her. I haven't recited Quran as much as her. I haven't been to anywhere to give ilmu to other people. I haven't had enough ilmu too. I haven't had enough amal for the counting day. And what if it's the time for malaikat maut to take my live, have I well-prepared?

homemade cappucino avec whipped cream

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum:)

presenting you.....*drum rolls!*

i look at her picture and i cry.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

she was sick. i knew.it was cancer, stage 4. 

radiotherapy, done. chemotherapy, done.
she was in pain like the other people who is in the middle of chemotherapy.
she lost her appetite, made her lost some weight.
she lost her hair, made her head bald. she couldn't walk as her leg was in pain. the cancer had spread all over her body.

she was taken care by my aunt all the time. only when she was taken by Ayah to be treated traditionally in Selangor, i took care of her for about 4 days.
she liked to tell story, about Ayah's childhood. About her sadness. 4 days later she went back to my aunt's home.


I went to Yogyakarta in August and when it was Raya holidays in September, i went back to Malaysia.
She was thin or maybe skinny. 1st day of Syawal, she was admitted to the hospital. We beraya at the hospital. She was weakened and in her slept, and i saw her pain.
holidays ended, i went back to Yogyakarta.

Holidays in February, i went back to Malaysia. She looked healthy. Alhamdulillah. she regained her weight, and her hair grew again. I bought her a scarf from Yogyakarta.
She was really glad that she put it on rightaway. It was the first thing i ever bought for her. And, i never knew it would 'the only thing' too. and i never knew that it was the last time i could see her.
it was the last time i hugged her. And she gave her advice and du'a like she always did.
"belajar rajin-rajin, dik. semoga Allah kurniakan rezeki yang melimpah-limpah".
and she handed some money like ahe always did, saying
"ini buat beli jajan (snacks)."

i was back in Yogyakarta when one day in April, i saw Ibu's status saying that she was gone. i was sure someone sms-ed me but, my handphone was broken at that time.
everyone went back to kampung. except me.

i wasn't there when she had her last breath.
i wasn't there when she was dikafankan and tahlil recited for her.
i wasn't one of the last faces that she saw.

at that time, i knew, i could not hug her anymore. Al-fatihah for my grandma.

getting fixed.

Assalamualaikum,
oh my...what a bad blogger i am. the last post i wrote was like months ago.
err...no laaa..takda masa, busy kot <----in denial. muahaha!


btw, lots of things happened around me, seriously.
like LOTS!
but then, it is impossible for me to jog all of them down here because 'literally' i have only 10 mins to finish this post.


You know, being a medical student is scary.  You learn about what's normal and what are abnormalities that could possibly happen to your own body and that's exactly where things become creepier.
When you find something strange on the surface of your body, you might be freaking out and will get it fixed ASAP. You will be making phone calls, calling seniors, ask this and that. But. hey the seniors will tell you 'Rilekla, ni urticaria je nih...in few hours nanti hilang. no worries la' *urticaria=hives, or more commonly known as gegata.


Okay, the point here is, i'd like to relate it with 'tak kenal maka tak cinta'. you see, when i used to be not knowing deeper about my body, i was like tak kisah sangat with whatsoever happened with it. ignorance maybe the perfect word. but when i knew more and more about my body plus the functions, i was like okayyy... i have to make sure try as hard as i can to make it at optimal level of function..in simple words: 

kenal dan cinta badan anda selalu, ok!

apakah?

 p/s: saya nak jadi doctor yang hot, bleh? :P

steak!

assalamualaikum w.b.t


did i tell you how muchhh i was craving for a plate of steak?
oh yes i did, in the previous post..hee:D
Yesterday, I went to the same Waroeng Steak and Shake again, for the second attempt as the first one already failed.
Alhamdulillah my wish to have a 'steaky' lunch was fulfilled as when I reached the restaurant, I can see the 
door was wide opened with so many customers in there. phewwww!
so we (sakiinah and I) walked in, looking at the menu and didn't know what to choose.
it seemed that we want to try all of the dishes as everything seemed tastyyyy except for the dish called 'ribs eye steak'.
what's that? the ribs and the eye? errr..
after taking a pretty long time to think, i decided to have a blackpepper steak and strawberry milkshake. and this was how
the steak looked like;

tadaaa!

ermmm, what can i say about the steak; it was so deliciious. the meat was so tender, the steak sauce was marvelous as we left the plate so clean and the milkshake was awesome. and you know what makes it more AWESOME? the price!
the blackpepper steak was Rp13000 plus Rp5500 for the milkshake. so, the total is Rp18500 which when converted to RM equals to
jeng jeng jeng app. RM6.60..shocked?:D
so, are you amazed? well, if you do, come to Jogja sometimes. i'll totally take you there!


p/s: i wasn't paid by Waroeng Steak and Shake to make such promotion. it was sincerely, by a food lover! ahaks:P

from a food craver's heart

assalamualaikum w.b.t


hey, are you craving for some, certain food right now?


like this?

or maybe this?

tell you what, i do, BADLY!


i had cake last week when my friends an I celebrated Ann's birthday. the cake was okaylaahh..
oh ya, that night, I also had blueberry cheese wafer, coconut yoghurt which taste like uhh coconut shake, ayam pindang which is a bit like asam pedas but less 'kaw',
mixed vege. ohhhh, awesome!


btw, i'm craving for any Secret Recipe cakes or anything similar like the blueberry cheese cake or chocolate indulgence. yummmeh!
plus, i'd like to have steak. this afternoon, directly after class, i cycled to the nearest Waroeng Steak and Shake, hoping to have a steaky lunch with maybe some juice.
but, my hope was totally crashed as i reached the not-so-near reastaurant, it wasn't opened yet! so saddddd that i almost cry, oh, i did cry....internally.T_T
then, i had the regular lunch i always had; nasi padang+lele.
and for dinner, i had plain rice+fried egg+kicap.
bored huh? still, itu adalah rezeki juga right? alhamdulillah..kenyang:D


btw, when you look at the pictures above, do you feel your mouth a bit watery? if you do, that's because when you smell, look, or even thinking of food, it will stimulate more saliva secretion. FACT!


p/s: I think this post is kind of pointless. don't you think so? heeee:D