I want to make a dress right now.

assalamualaikum.


*sigh*.
it has been a long time since the last time i touched my mum's sewing machine and i am kind of missing it. seriously! only a few knew that i do have interest in making clothes.
The first dress i had made was for my Barbie doll. i still remember how i cut some old t-shirts and socks and with a needle and a spool of black thread, i managed to come out with some dresses for my dolls. i just realized it NOW that those dresses were terrible. as if the dolls could talk, they would say "OMG, is this a dress or what? I'm not gonna wear it!" but i was 11 back then, so OK la kot dah boleh menjahit. haha. A friend of mine don't even know how to sew the small torn part of her baju kurung. And guess what..she was 18 that time! So, mama's out there, do teach your daughters or even your sons to do simple sewing steps. seriously, they need  them :P


During the holidays, after SPM, i made a dress for myself from my mother's old skirt. Although the needlework wasn't that neat, i'm still proud of it. the first handmade dress for HUMAN! it is mostly black and there is yellow pattern at bottom part of it. a vintage dress, i think. i wore it for a few times and even when I was on trip to Langkawi with Bear. Bear's mum even said the dress is nice and it is still hanging in my room as i write this post. :D


however, my mum's sewing machine got broken when i used it to make the mentioned dress. my bad. no more sewing machine but seriously, i do want to make a dress rite now. mode: sewing.
fabrics, where are you?...here i come! *with scissors in hand*

oouch!

oh, anyone selling cheap second hand sewing machine? buzz me!

so, welcome back.

assalamualaikum..


so, here i am...writing something so that my blog will be active again. i hooppe soo!


Right now, i'm in the middle of not-too-long holiday, as i just ended my A-level course 3 weeks ago and waiting for my result.takut sangat!
At first, I have the thought of getting a part time job, but I don't think anyone would hire me because I only can do the job for a month besides the fact that there will be no transport. sad:(
I did spot a job at one shop selling shoes at Tesco Semenyih and the income is rm700++..I think it's WOW!
i mean,  the job is not that tough and tiring like working at fast food restaurants or cashier at hypermarket. Only dealing with SHOES, which is one of my eye-obsession! I like looking at shoes but buying them? well, let me think about it..errmm..are they worth?  where and when i shall wear them? naaahhh, no needlah. The last time i bought a pair of shoes was...bile ek? err...i don't remember, but of course this year and I used them on the Graduation night.

a pair of black gladiator heels.

As my first mission already failed, so I go to the next plan which is learning cooking! along this holidays, I've learned cooking 'daging masak blackpepper', 'nasi lemak( full set)', mustards in oyster sauce, shrimp paste fried rice (nasi goreng belacan). well. simple2 sudah. next recipe will be chicken curry and bubur durian. i'm thinking of pengat pisang as well cause dah lameeeee tak makan pengat pisang. plus macaroni kot. Oh, wish me luck.

my first trial of nasi lemak; does it look tasty?..:P

But then, there is ONE thing that i'm afraid of, which I believe some other girls would also worry about. WEIGHT!  ohh..tell me how can I can destroy the fact that gaining weight is so muccchhh easier than losing some kg's..Aaaarghh..! The last holidays (after SPM), I put almost 10 kilos in my body. haha.. well done! so here I am, being a kind of fat large-sized woman. way larger than 36"- 26"- 36". totally. ergh, whatever.

i declare a war.

assalamualaikum w.b.t..


just wanna speak out loud;
I DECLARE A WAR AGAINST HER.
who the heck is she?
well, it's not proper to state a name here.
but i just want you to know (if you read this post),
if your promises are meant to be broken, don't make any..okay?
so i'm declaring a war against her and it will be ended only when the safe word is spoken.


p/s: hint for the the safe word. the initial is 'S'.

it's too late to regret.

Salam.

AS ended 2 weeks ago, which was a day before my 18th birthday. 

It is such a relief at first. But as days passed, i'm starting to freak out about the outcoming result.

3 strong A's of course will always be my target. however, my head keeps saying it's impossible.(please be possible!) My perfomance during the exam was terrible, really was! It was such the biggest disaster ever happened to me and I admit that I gave the worst answers on those papers. I feel insecure about the result, i really am! And seriously, I AM SCARED. please time, do stop! I don't want to meet with MISS FEBRUARY 2010 which will show me the white paper with grades on it. Oh no, not yet!

I just realised that there's no way to turn back. I wish time machine is right next to me so that I can go back to June 09 and start all over again. But, it won't happen.


it's too late to regret, isn't it?

Now, the second semester has just started. I must be more serious than the previous semester as I'm gonna sit for A2 in May/June 2010, which is the duration is not enough for me. Plus, I was told that the subjects are getting complicated to be understood and so are the questions, getting harder. Not to be forgotten, I also will be sitting for Entrance Exam and IELTS around March-April.

So, I'm making a list of changes for this semester and i HAVE to do it! : 

1) No extra times for sleep anymore.

2) Go to the library every night. or at least 4 nights a week.

3) Do not postpone the exercises given.

4) Read the textbook before and after the class.

5) Do more exercises. Finish the past years questions.

6) Do not frequently go back home.  Study at home? trust me, it's not gonna work.

7) Keep meeting your teachers if there are problems in study.

8) Behave yourself. Be a better, optimistic person.

9) Pray to Allah more and more.

10) Respect and love everybody around you in order to seek bless.

"YA, ALLAH..help us in our study,

ease us to understand better in what we've learned and are about to learn,

give us the best result for A-LEVEL or any examination,

help us to pursue our study in UGM and ease our journey to become doctors."

-Amin, amin ya rabbal'alamin-

French words. miss them!

Assalamualaikum..

yes, yes I know I've been cruel to you dear Mister Bloggie.

I've been busy recently for my AS and I forgot to feed you with my words.

ahah!

btw, I dont know why, but lately, my mind keeps thinking bout french words:

fromage, pomme de terre, stylo, amies, copain, etc. etc.

It has been 2 years since the last french lesson, quite enough time to lose memory.

And I'm afraid i might forgot the grammars, pronounciation..and whatsoever related to F.R.E.N.C.H..

je pense que

je suis..

je...hurm~

I guess I MISS FRENCH CLASS.

(although I always ACCIDENTALLY slept in class.:p)

and I MISS MADAM WAN RAFIDAH too..

merci2!

c'est tout!

when 30++ SEMASHURIANS "break+fast" at nando's

salam..

yesterday was a total fun!
the "break+fast" or in the other word 'iftar' was a blast.
credits to azila amirah che wahab; the one who invited me to the unofficial occassion.

oh, the venue: nando's midvalley.
kind of havoc. (kind of? it's more than 'kind of')
btw, give a big clap coz semashurians managed to change the nando's into a noisy pasar malam.
haha. bravo2. kte berjaya menarik perhatian pengunjung2 lain di situ. ni baru 30 plus, blom the whole crowd!
tpi, bising gle larhhh kat nandos's tuh. kecoh.
everyone talked. non-stop.
spilling out their hot stories; bout studies, new bf/gf and err...crush, and etc.
but i like it like that.
i miss to hear that particular noise. the noise that reminds me of SEMASHUR, the jungle-jail-like school.
yet, it is still the place where we turned from kids into great teenagers!

ok. back to the topic!
after the maghrib prayer, we ensembled back in front of nando's.
we stood there and chatted with each other and also having a few photoshoot session.
btw, rugi sangat2 coz i had no camera with me. my hp was at Ayah which is just freshly taken from a hp shop in Malacca for repairment. but today, I got my SE w705 back! yeay!

then at 9.30, the KTT crews (me, ain, bella taib, nuril and afiq) blah from that place. we reached the nilai station at 11 something, nseb bek dh sewa kereta, so tak payah susah2 nak cari cab.
ahaaaa, credits to nuril for being unpaid driver dat nite. but nuril drive..pergh! smpi ktorg kat blakang pun cuak!

after returned the car to uncle sham, we went back to KTT. at that time, it was already the curfew hour. unexpectedly, there was a lecturer (kot) waiting at pak guard's post and as expected kitorg kne tahan and kne brainwash plak kat situ. adeh!

well, shall we call it as "a happy story with unhappy ending".

the girls.

more girls.

and, boys like girls. ahah!

the chaotic pre-AS.

salam..

i'm tired; of answering or more specific 'menembak', 'merapu' on the KILLER pre-AS questionssss (lot of them).

my fault, of course.

I DID read all those notes given by the lecturer, the complicated textbook.

still, i became BLURRED as soon as I read the questions.

adeh, it scares me a lot.

AS is only a month+ to go.

go nabilah go!