living room

the Game.

2012-01-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

This week was really a hectic week. Lots of reports to be done, lots of tiny-circular cells to be drawn ( okay, I am talking about Pathology Anatomy ), two discussion to be made; acute appendicitis + leukemia, workplans, tests and quiz. And most of them were to be submitted on the same day. Well done, i was a robot on last Tuesday, added with some unstable emotions.

So, last night I went out with the girls from my Bulatan Gembira, Faramie and Linda, took a little time to get this head some rest form keep blending the assignments whatsoever. Well, actually this hangout was planned since last block, but we were too busy that we could only have it yesterday.

What I could say about the hang out, Alhamdulillah, it was AWESOME or maybe OSEM! Seriously, I've never had an outing like what i had yesterday. it not just an outing. it was more than that.

okay, lemme tell you what did we do during the hang out.

It was approximately at 5pm when we (Linda and me) left house went to Falah to fetch Faramie as her Lemonade ( her scooter got name..hoho) was sick. Then we straightly go to Amplaz, arrived there at about 30-40 minutes later. So, the plan was, we would buy presents for each other and give them during the makan-makan. So we splitted up, making our own directions to buy presents. So, i went to my favourite spot, which is Carrefour, to be specific at the area of plates and cups. but, naah..none of them caught my eyes. but what was actually caught my eyes is Linda! Oh my. kantoi habiss..uwaaa! we looked at each other, laughing out loud..

me: kak linda, nape kak linda kat sini? uwaa..kantoi laa.
Linda : abel!

Out of many shops, it was so funny that we were in Carrefour, and was at the same area and at the SAME TIME! Then we splitted again. I got some cute gifts for them, Hello Kitty keychains and adorable feathered pens. At about 6.15, we met. It was only me that already had presents for them. but Faramie and Linda came with empty hands. They were so blank, don't know what to buy within a short time. So, we went to perform our Maghrib prayer.

After that, the searching game started again, so I took a walk to add on a few things for them. Again, I went to Carrefour, with the intention to go to the same area just now. there, I saw a familiar headscarf, okay..it was Linda AGAIN! *buat-buat tak nampak*

I went to the different area, area of towels and what made me excited was, I could write name on the towels for a reasonable price. so, i bought three face towels, ask the workers to write our names on the towel. ( it wasn't written actually, it was like sulam. here it is called bordir)

Then, as we promised, we met at Solaria. Faramie was already there, reciting Quran. Then, after Linda arrived, we start our makan2. While waiting for the food to come, we recite surah Az-Zumar 39 : 6-10. Then, did some tadabbur, sharings, qardhoya (curahan hati). The food came. After we ate, we started to change presents. I got a nice heat-proof glass baking dish from Linda and a multipurpose fexible Rose from Faramie. Jazakumullah Khair sisters! *i hope they like my gifts too*
Then at about 9am we went back home. Happy!

my presents;
the rose from Faramie
the dish form Linda
The towel from Me.
*hearts*

oh please, I want to do it more!

Disunahkan seorang muslim memberikan hadiah kepada saudaranya, berdasarkan hadis bahawa Rasulullah saw bersabda:

«وَتَهَادُوْا تَحَابُّوْا»

Kalian harus saling memberi hadiah, maka kalian akan saling mencintai. (HR. Bukhari).

grateful, i am.

2011-12-26T18:35:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

the missing blogger is now back in town. hihi

So here i'm writing, distracted by this blogging thingy, makes me away from my lecture slides.

oh, ya exam is in 3 days. THREE DAYS! ok, whatever. let the story begin;

err..may i scream "ALHAMDULILLAH" as loud as i can? please, pretty please please?
Ya, Allah thanks for everything around me, good things, bad things..i believe they are tests for me to get closer to you.

As long as I live, i've never been in this feeling. the feeling of too grateful that I wanna cry badly.

I have lots of good things happen around me.

Parents that love me although they are far away from me. My sisters and my only brother. Thank you Allah for them.
Friends that I could keep. Friends that always stay with me, be the shoulder to cry on. Thank you Allah for them.

Mama2 usrah saya and Bulatan Gembira saya. weee:D those yg always witness my tears. Sorry for being emotional time2 "qordhoya". Thank you Allah for them.
My hamsters and their babies. so cute that I wanna squeeze them.

My life, that is way better than those on the streets, waiting people to give a few rupiahs. And the scholarship, education, scooter. etc etc.

Ya Allah terlalu banyak nikmat yang Allah bagi. Countless!

''Dan jika kamu menghitung-hitung nikmat Allah, niscaya kamu tidak dapat menentukan jumlahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah benar-benar Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.'' (QS An Nahl [16]: 18)

I believe that you guys own so many things. maybe much much more than what I got. jom duduk sejenak and think "have we said Alhamdulillah for all those things?"

But sometimes, something went wrong, something went missing, something was taken away.

but we feel sad badly as if everything was gone. And na'uzubillah, we blame Allah for that, questioning 'Why is this happening, why i couldn't get what I wished for? Why Allah? Why?

but Allah says

"...boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak Mengetahui." (Al-Quran Surat Al-Baqarah Ayat 216)

Sometimes what we wished for is not beneficial for us, but we just don't know it yet.
For example, I wished I am even richer than Bill Gates, that sounds beneficial for me right? And if Allah granted my wish, oh yeaaah, I'm gonna have lots of money, I can buy this and that, I can fly to whenever I want..bla bla..
but Allah knows best. maybe if I am that rich, I would forget who I am. I would forget my Creator and that would be totally maleficient! TOTALLY! (p/s: it's just an example)

I wanna share this story, heard it from someone. About a sahabat of Rasulullah, if I'm not mistaken.
There was a ceremony back in that time. And a some kind of pudding was served, but a sahabat didn't want to eat it.

Another sahabat asked "why didn't you eat the pudding?"

The-I-dont-want-to-eat-pudding-sahabat said "I dont wanna eat it because I am afraid I won't be grateful if I had only a glass of plain water next time"
The-another-sahabat replied "Are you silly? We should be grateful for sekecil mana pun nikmat Allah"

The pudding signifies something yang WOW and the plain water, well it's just plain. The sahabat afraids that bila dia dah dapat something yang WOW, and the next time dia dapat something yang plain, he won't be grateful. That's not the way it is. Supposedly, anything yang Allah bagi, kita mesti bersyukur sebenarnya. Sekecil mana pun. Maybe now, we always sleep on the bed, but in anytime, we would need to sleep on a thin mat. Alhamdulillah, we still have place to sleep.

"I wished for a car. but I got a scooter instead. Alhamdulillah."

I'm not good at story telling, but I hope you get the point. Thank you.

midnite date with Allah.

2011-11-02T20:28:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt..

1) have you ever heard about qiyamullail (prayers at nite)? if you did, that's good!
2) have you ever practice it, once at least? if you did, wow..it's great!
3) do you istiqamah (consistent) in performing it? if you DO, then..alhamdulillah, you're just awesome. :)

3 little questions, and what are our answers for them?

let me give a brief definition of qiyamullail. although i know, we all had learned about it in school back then.
qiyamullail comes from qiyam; wake up for a while and lail; night.
so, the combinations bring the meanings spend a part of the night with ibadat like solat or others.

there are lots of benefits in performing qiyamullail. some of them are stated in this hadith;

He (SAW) said :“You should pray Qiyaam al-Layl, for it is the habit of the righteous people who came before you, and it will bring you closer to your Lord, expiate for bad deeds, prevent sin, and expel disease from the body.”[at-Tirmidhee and Musnad Ahmad]

What do you feel when performing qiyamullail?
taken from someone's answer;

"based on my not-too-much-experience, when i woke up at the night, i could feel the calmness, the tranquility, and i feel so tiny as a God's creation, i feel the loneliness as if i don't have anyone around but Allah.
it's just the feeling that you want to focus on your ibadah, to confess everything to Allah, to ask anything from Allah, to reminisce every mistakes you've done and the feeling that you want to ask forgiveness from Allah.
it's just the right time that you could pour all of of your tears to wet your prayer mat.
it's just the time that you want to get closer to Allah.
it's just the midnite date of you and your Creator"

waaah, jom same-same cari feeling tuh..:)

lately, i don't know why, but this body feels too weak to wake up at night and selalu sangat tak dengar alarm. nabilah, semangat!

and, how does solat influence us?

2011-08-19T21:49:00.003+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum!

So, as you can see the headline is about solat (prayer) and how does it influence us. As a Muslim, we all know the obligation of performing solat right? It is clearly stated in Rukun Islam, at the second point, which is right after "mengucapkan kalimah syahadah". Well, I'm not really an expert, but what I can conclude and understand from the Quran; the obligation of performing prayer is A BIG DEAL. it's not a funny business. As what i understand, it's like "setelah kita beriman kepada Allah tu, yang keduanya adalah solat". Means, prayer is the most important thing after we witness the "Keesaan Allah swt",

The question is, why do we have to perform prayer? Hurmm, let me present the direct answer, not created by me but it was told by Allah in His verses in Al-Quran. it is stated that;

"Dirikanlah sembahyang, sesungguhnya sembahyang itu mencegah dari perbuatan2 keji dan munkar. dan sesungguhnya mengingat allah (solat) adalah lebih besar keutamaanya dari ibadah2 yang lain."

(surah al-ankabut: 45)

I really like to highlight the part 'sembahyang itu mencegah dari perbuatan2 keji dan mungkar'. If everyone is concerned enough to notice what's happening around us, around the world which shocking news are everywhere. Murdereres, burglars, bad rulers, and many others. We can see that people are going mad; im not saying everyone ( if everyone, of course i'm counted) . But, worlds are going upside down with all the riots here and there. But, seeing bad things happening in Muslim countries, the big question popped out; prayers prevent us from bad doings, kan? errr..why orang yang perform solat tu still je buat jahat? For simple example, selipar stolen at mosque? Bukan ke orang-orang pergi surau nak solat? After solat tu, pergi mencuri pulak? Haaaihh!

So, where is the mistake? Nak kata tak solat, nampak je dia takbir, rukuk, sujud and all that. But, he/she acts like orang tak solat. I remember my Ustaz's answer for this kind of popular question when we were in school.

"kalau dah solat tu pun niatnya bukan kerana Allah..camne tuh? Niat to get people admiration. Performing prayers so that people will say "baiklah dia ni".
Or to prevent Mom being angry. Bunyi je enjin kereta Mak, terus lari ambil wudhu'. Solat ekspress!

If like that lah our niat, hurmmm macamane nak mencegah kemungkaran, kan? Jadinya, let's solat properly.

Salah seorang Sahabat datang kepada Rasulullah SAW dan berkata: "Wahai Rasulullah! Tolong beri

saya nasihat yang padat tapi dapat mencapai intipati matlamat! " Rasulullah menjawab: "Bila kamu

solat, solatlah seolah-olah kamu akan meninggalkan dunia ini dan ianya solat terakhir bagimu! Jangan

berkata apa-apa yang boleh menyebabkan kamu terpaksa minta maaf! Jangan berkehendakkan apa-apa

hak kepunyaan orang lain! "

(Ibn Majah, Zuhd, 15; Ahmad bin Hambal, Musnad, V, 419)

p/s: a reminder for all of us, especially me.

saya anti kamu

2011-08-03T14:28:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

First of all, this post is not addressed to any human. It's Ramadhan right? no hatred feeling please. :)
but it is about a little creature. well, usually i love little things like little fingers of babies, barbie's tea cups plus the garments, sweets and lollipops etc. because of their cuteness of being little. But this one, i'm sorry I couldn't give any part of my love towards it.

Well, I first met this creature in the Tom and Jerry Show. As everyone noticed, Jerry, the little creature always won in any fight with Tom, the cat. Tom is a bully, yeah I know...but Jerry is a BIG bully. *tak padan badan kecik, heh!* And, usually it was Jerry that messed with Tom first. Poor Tommm, bad Jerry!

Lucky that this little creature appeared on Mickey M**** show in a better personality. I didn't really follow this show, but this little creature played the 'good-guy' role, if I'm not mistaken. Hurmm. no comment.

Then, it was in the year 1999 or 2000 when I first met this little creature, face-to-face. I was jumping on the bed with my sister when suddenly we saw it crawling behind the closed door. And, we were screaming like crazies. Yup, like crazies. Then....I forgot what happened next.

Next, after a few years after the incident, which was in 2008 (when I was in Form 5). My dorm was at the ground floor, with my locker stood at the edge of the dorm, right next to the window. It was always filled with food at the bottom part of the locker. However, the doors of the locker couldn't be closed properly, leaving a small passage for this little creature. And, yeah, this little creature became a regular visitor to my locker. I still remember how mean it was when it bite all boxes of my Dutch lady milk. And the next day it bite my dates. It was in Ramadhan. Im sure it is. Not only that, it bite my baju kurung, and the worse part is, I only realized the torn part while in class (prep malam) when I was wearing that baju kurung. See? Dia sangat jahat, okay!

The story of this little creature didn't stop there. In early 2010, it attacked my room in my college. It bite my bed sheet, my begs, my clothes, etc. I threw quite a number of my clothes as most of them got holes! Not only that, it peed and pooped on my bed, in my closet..see? how cruel it is!

And a few weeks ago, it attacked my kitchen in my home in Jogja. It gave holes to the plastics of the flour, scattering all the spices inside the cupboard and caused us such a great loss. Most of those spices were imported from Malaysia and they were limited. Again, it pooped. But, alhamdulillah it was busted.

A few days ago it attempted to attack again. I saw it twice, running into the kitchen. But last night, Baby saw it crawled into the kitchen again. Thanks to Baby that she set up the trap. Before midnight, it was caught and for sure, it will be sentenced to death.

And that is how "Saya Anti Kamu, Encik Tikus!"

food for a soul

2011-07-23T15:59:00.000+08:00

Bismillah..
Assalamualaikum.

It's a beautiful Saturday. It was too beautiful that I overslept. I woke up at 7.04 am. Ashamed and shocked.
But I have reason for that. I was preparing the salad for our breakfast at 12 am/1 am so that we'll be eating the salad sejuk-sejuk on the next morning. That night, I was alone in our small kitchen, with scratching sound at the ceiling and that made me like having a recurrent heart attack. If cicak yang scratch-scratch, I don't really mind. but if it was, you know..the creature with bau-bau bacang dengan hamster but with long tail and usually grayish black in colour. Oh, my. I could cry.

So, I woke up. it was 7.04am! What I got in my mind is "hey, you kena amek gambar untuk MATTA weyhhh" and MATTA will be started at 7.30am. Oh, my! I rushed. Took bath in a rush, but completely, had breakfast (the salad), called taxi. and yadaaa at around 8 we left our Raudhah (our home)

MATTA stands for Majlis Tahfiz and Tilawah Al-Quran. But this really genius girl didn't bring her tafsir. and as been told early, there will be ceramah about Al-Quran, she once again acted like a genius by not bringing her notebook. Super genius and yup, it was me. So, I was like okay, have I really prepared myself for the ilmu? have I?

So, I listened and tried to concentrate. First, it started with Quran reciting by a tahfiz, a husband of my senior. *jealous with the newlyweds*. And then, the ceramah began. It was about Al-Quran.The main importance of Al-Quran to us. To every human. As recited in Quran,

Al-Baqarah: 2

This is the Book; in it is guidance sure, without doubt, to those who fear Allah;

And, I was touched when the ustaz told us about 4 types of human confronting Al-Quran
1. Human that the light from Quran is blocked by anger
2. Human that the light from Quran is blocked by desire duniawi
3. Human that the light from Quran is neither blocked by anger nor desire.
4. Human that the light from Quran diffuse into his/her heart.

I was really touched with the 4th one which is the best one. The ustaz gave us an example. An icon. Allahyarhamah Ustazah Yoyoh. A mother with 13 children. A teacher in a few places. An a'bid that recited Quran about 3 juzu' per day. And, on 21st May, she had her last breath with the last kalimah "Laa ilaha illallah..". Not only that, 2 days before she was gone, she SMSed a few of her friends. a long one. The content is, she was doubtful with her position in the Hereafter. She compared herself with Khadijah, Aisyah', Ummu Sulaim, Asma' Abu Bakar. Those were the among greatest Sahabiahs of Rasulullah. She felt very tiny compared to them. But, subhanallah, she met her ajal with the holy words. The 'kesaksian' Laa ilaha illallah.." and during reciting Quran.

I compared myself with her. I haven't recited Quran as much as her. I haven't been to anywhere to give ilmu to other people. I haven't had enough ilmu too. I haven't had enough amal for the counting day. And what if it's the time for malaikat maut to take my live, have I well-prepared?

homemade cappucino avec whipped cream

2011-07-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum:)

presenting you.....*drum rolls!*

i look at her picture and i cry.

2011-07-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

she was sick. i knew.it was cancer, stage 4.

radiotherapy, done. chemotherapy, done.
she was in pain like the other people who is in the middle of chemotherapy.
she lost her appetite, made her lost some weight.
she lost her hair, made her head bald. she couldn't walk as her leg was in pain. the cancer had spread all over her body.

she was taken care by my aunt all the time. only when she was taken by Ayah to be treated traditionally in Selangor, i took care of her for about 4 days.
she liked to tell story, about Ayah's childhood. About her sadness. 4 days later she went back to my aunt's home.

I went to Yogyakarta in August and when it was Raya holidays in September, i went back to Malaysia.
She was thin or maybe skinny. 1st day of Syawal, she was admitted to the hospital. We beraya at the hospital. She was weakened and in her slept, and i saw her pain.
holidays ended, i went back to Yogyakarta.

Holidays in February, i went back to Malaysia. She looked healthy. Alhamdulillah. she regained her weight, and her hair grew again. I bought her a scarf from Yogyakarta.
She was really glad that she put it on rightaway. It was the first thing i ever bought for her. And, i never knew it would 'the only thing' too. and i never knew that it was the last time i could see her.
it was the last time i hugged her. And she gave her advice and du'a like she always did.
"belajar rajin-rajin, dik. semoga Allah kurniakan rezeki yang melimpah-limpah".
and she handed some money like ahe always did, saying
"ini buat beli jajan (snacks)."

i was back in Yogyakarta when one day in April, i saw Ibu's status saying that she was gone. i was sure someone sms-ed me but, my handphone was broken at that time.
everyone went back to kampung. except me.

i wasn't there when she had her last breath.
i wasn't there when she was dikafankan and tahlil recited for her.
i wasn't one of the last faces that she saw.

at that time, i knew, i could not hug her anymore. Al-fatihah for my grandma.

getting fixed.

2011-07-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum,
oh my...what a bad blogger i am. the last post i wrote was like months ago.
err...no laaa..takda masa, busy kot <----in denial. muahaha!

btw, lots of things happened around me, seriously.
like LOTS!
but then, it is impossible for me to jog all of them down here because 'literally' i have only 10 mins to finish this post.

You know, being a medical student is scary. You learn about what's normal and what are abnormalities that could possibly happen to your own body and that's exactly where things become creepier.
When you find something strange on the surface of your body, you might be freaking out and will get it fixed ASAP. You will be making phone calls, calling seniors, ask this and that. But. hey the seniors will tell you 'Rilekla, ni urticaria je nih...in few hours nanti hilang. no worries la' *urticaria=hives, or more commonly known as gegata.

Okay, the point here is, i'd like to relate it with 'tak kenal maka tak cinta'. you see, when i used to be not knowing deeper about my body, i was like tak kisah sangat with whatsoever happened with it. ignorance maybe the perfect word. but when i knew more and more about my body plus the functions, i was like okayyy... i have to ~~make sure~~ try as hard as i can to make it at optimal level of function..in simple words:

kenal dan cinta badan anda selalu, ok!

apakah?

p/s: saya nak jadi doctor yang hot, bleh? :P

steak!

2010-12-30T20:14:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t

did i tell you how muchhh i was craving for a plate of steak?
oh yes i did, in the previous post..hee:D
Yesterday, I went to the same Waroeng Steak and Shake again, for the second attempt as the first one already failed.
Alhamdulillah my wish to have a 'steaky' lunch was fulfilled as when I reached the restaurant, I can see the
door was wide opened with so many customers in there. phewwww!
so we (sakiinah and I) walked in, looking at the menu and didn't know what to choose.
it seemed that we want to try all of the dishes as everything seemed tastyyyy except for the dish called 'ribs eye steak'.
what's that? the ribs and the eye? errr..
after taking a pretty long time to think, i decided to have a blackpepper steak and strawberry milkshake. and this was how
the steak looked like;

tadaaa!

ermmm, what can i say about the steak; it was so deliciious. the meat was so tender, the steak sauce was marvelous as we left the plate so clean and the milkshake was awesome. and you know what makes it more AWESOME? the price!
the blackpepper steak was Rp13000 plus Rp5500 for the milkshake. so, the total is Rp18500 which when converted to RM equals to
jeng jeng jeng app. RM6.60..shocked?:D
so, are you amazed? well, if you do, come to Jogja sometimes. i'll totally take you there!

p/s: i wasn't paid by Waroeng Steak and Shake to make such promotion. it was sincerely, by a food lover! ahaks:P

from a food craver's heart

2010-12-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t

hey, are you craving for some, certain food right now?

like this?

or maybe this?

tell you what, i do, BADLY!

i had cake last week when my friends an I celebrated Ann's birthday. the cake was okaylaahh..
oh ya, that night, I also had blueberry cheese wafer, coconut yoghurt which taste like uhh coconut shake, ayam pindang which is a bit like asam pedas but less 'kaw',
mixed vege. ohhhh, awesome!

btw, i'm craving for any Secret Recipe cakes or anything similar like the blueberry cheese cake or chocolate indulgence. yummmeh!
plus, i'd like to have steak. this afternoon, directly after class, i cycled to the nearest Waroeng Steak and Shake, hoping to have a steaky lunch with maybe some juice.
but, my hope was totally crashed as i reached the not-so-near reastaurant, it wasn't opened yet! so saddddd that i almost cry, oh, i did cry....internally.T_T
then, i had the regular lunch i always had; nasi padang+lele.
and for dinner, i had plain rice+fried egg+kicap.
bored huh? still, itu adalah rezeki juga right? alhamdulillah..kenyang:D

btw, when you look at the pictures above, do you feel your mouth a bit watery? if you do, that's because when you smell, look, or even thinking of food, it will stimulate more saliva secretion. FACT!

p/s: I think this post is kind of pointless. don't you think so? heeee:D

uncomfortable and distracted.

2010-12-19T11:12:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum.

morning people. it's Sunday and i love-hate it.
although Sunday is like a big holiday for the week but then, it's the sign that Monday's coming.
it means that block 1.3 is gonna start real soon. *haihhhh*

So, here i am, being a bit enthusiastic of updating my blog. thanks to baby, who kept saying "you, bile nak update blog?" teeeheeee:D

so, what's up with the title up there?
Okay, yesterday i went to the volleyball practice. not really a practice because it seemed like we were playing just for fun. volleyball, for this moment is my passion other than swimming. volleyball is what i really want to get involved seriously and i'm looking forward to join the volleyball team for Bandung Games again next year. i wish i could. amin:)
but then, there's something or specifically someone that made me uncomfortable and distracted when we were playing volleyball. i wasn't thought that this person would come and play along. although, this person always did join us in the previous practice, but i don't want this person to be there. oh, seriously, i hate it. i hate the situation so much that i feel like calling taxi at the moment i saw this person arrived. i hate it so much that i really wanted to get out of the court asap. but that's gonna be really obvious right? bad idea!

Actually, i don't really hate this person. no, not at all. (as mentioned above, i only hate the situation) it's just that seeing and facing this person made me guilty. like i'm the convicted one. i don't know why, but i think i have treated this person badly and of course i feel bad about it. maybe this person would not feel anything about what happened but i can't. i just can't get it out of my mind. i hate it when i did something bad at people and i have to face that people again. i feel like i owe an apology. but should I say sorry? err...
well, there will be another practice on every Saturday. seriously i want to come and play, but thinking of i'm gonna face this person again really made me thinking of quitting..quitting volleyball? should i quit?

but hell no! this is my passion, and this is what i want. so, i will never let this person kill it. maybe i just have to find a way on how to deal with it. concentrate, girl!

some things are worth the risk.

2010-12-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

hey, hey..i just came back from watching TRON: Legacy..

well, you know what, i have never knew the existence of any tron-ic cartoon, tron-ic previous movie etc etc..suppose, this is the first time i watch a TRON-ic movie.. (sounds a bit lame huh? who cares)
overall, the movie wasn't that ummmph! because the story line was too simple. and i think it was pretty slow. but the graphic was like WOOOW! so nice if watch it 3D. btw, there's a quote from that movie that i'm kind of liking it, and if i'm not mistaken i heard it like this;

"some things are worth the risk"
(kevin flynn said to sam flynn)

I don't know why, but this line makes me think that do we know what things are really worth the risk? and what if the things that we thought would worth it, but apparently they're not? aren't we going to be sorry for that? aren't we going to wish upon the stars so that we can turn back the times?
i guess, there are always risks in everything we do like uhhh;

1)EATING-the risk of getting food-poisoning.
2)FALLING IN LOVE- the risk of getting a heartbroken.
3)TAKING MED.-the risk of couldn't get along with it.
4)TRUSTING-the risk of being betrayed.
5)MAKING DECISION-the risk of making wrong choice.

generally, the are bunches of people out there (maybe i'm included) that would not dare to do some things because they don't want to take the risks. but, on a second thought, we don't always know what would happen if we don't do it. I mean, as it is termed as RISK; which it might or might not happen, at some time it would be a big loss if we don't try it. "belum cuba belum tahu" rite? instead of the risks that we afraid of, better things can happen too. for example, based on the previous example;

1)EATING-the food is really tasty+save to eat.
2)FALLING IN LOVE-the person might be our "teman sehidup semati"
3)TAKING MED.-we could be the best doctor and contribute a lot to people.
4)TRUSTING-might find the one who we can always rely on, ask for help.
5)MAKING DECISION-the choice we've made is the correct one.

see? whatever it is, life is not always as shine and bright as a sunny day. sometimes it rains. but then, Allah gives us rainbow after the rain. always believe that whatever happens, there must be the hikmah (goodness) that we could feel it directly or indirectly.:D

"YA ALLAH, KURNIAKANLAH APA YANG TERBAIK BUAT KAMI. AMIN"

19?

2010-11-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.
just wanna shout out loud;

alhamdulillah,

I'm 19 and 3 days:)

I LOVED YOU TOO.

2010-11-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.
Okayy, the title is like euww..gross!
but then that's the reality. it is OBVIOUSLY a lie if a person never had at least a single feeling for the other.
even gay pun ade perasaan sesama lelaki, ookaayyy.

me? i did. a lot. but seriously, im the type of person that when it comes to heart and feelings, i become like malu gile tibe2, cuak over nothing, geli, meremang bulu roma and mcm lagi la yg tak best.
especially when i talk about it with the opposite gender. erghh..I DON'T KNOW WHY.
tapi kalau setakat crush main2 tu, takde hal lah kalu nak cakap2 ngan kawan.

before posting this post, i was like; okay nak post ke taknak..nak post ke taknak..malu kot! at last saya post jugak.

so, i think this is the first time i'm revealing about a person calleeeeddd MISTER BARBIE.:)
why? sebab dulu2 dia kasi saya CD BARBIE laaa.

he's not handsome, not tall; even shorter than me, not lanky, not wearing specs, not the type that capture girls' attentions, not involve in any sport, not too nice, sarcastic, suke cari gaduh and so on.
he doesn't have the characteristics of my MR RIGHT should have. but then, that's love. you fall in love with someone accidentally. and you just don't know why. what matter is, you and that person can get along. happy same2. can talk bout things non-stop. and, out of many guys out there, i accidentally fell for him. and, fortunately, he did too.

but things went wrong when he started to express his feeling. like i said 'im the type of person that when it comes to heart and feelings, i become like malu gile tibe2, cuak over nothing, geli, meremang bulu roma and mcm2 lagi la yg tak best."

so, that's why when he said 'I LOVE YOU'..i was sooo shocked, embarassed, and don't know what to do. and, i replied 'I HATE YOU'..what the..i didn't know from which part of my brain that gave this ~~stupid~~ answer.
not only that, i did talk bad things about him, calling him with names, but the reality is, i didn't mean any of them. (don't judge me please. i was not matured enough at that moment)

those were the reasons that our relationship stopped. since then, we have stopped talking to each other. he even changed his email and phone number without telling me, okay.
a few years after that, thanks to FRIENDSTER which was kind of connecting us back. he gave his new email and we started to chat like we do, only that less frequent than we used to be.

it was 4 years after the 'I LOVE YOU' part. and that particular part was re-played.
he said for the second time. 'I LOVE YOU'..and guess what..i screwed it up again as i said "ahahhaahaha".
and, after that i was thinking, what do you feel if you are serious in something, but people making joke at it?

after that, we accidentally met in some kind of reunion. i never thought that he would run away as he saw me.
but i tried to approach him nicely, as friend. at first, it worked. but it did not last long as now, he is kind of ignoring me. i was like..okay, we've known each other since i was in standard 5, but we have nothing. even friendship. that's pathetic, isn't it?

but now, i've put things behind us. my feeling for him has vanished.For me, that was the past, history. now, we're confronting the present. so, what i want is for us to be friends again.
btw, he's in a relationship now, and i don't know why, it's kind of making me jealous.

dear mister barbie,
i know it is too late now. i just want you to know that;
I LOVED YOU TOO since i was 14 till 18 years old!:D

early life in Jogja.

2010-08-26T00:03:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum:)

Okay, i've been very busy last week that i didn't have time to post anything bout my new place which is Universitas Gadjah Mada, Yogyakarta. Btw, my entry this time will be a bit different because i'm going to write in bahasa melayu+english+indonesia. bahasa rojak, bleh kan? :)

Tanggal 15.8, kami di tiba di Jogja, dua hari yang pertama, kami bebas melakukan aktiviti masing-masing plus kami dibawa untuk shopping barang2 keperluan kami di hostel. kat Carrefour je, kitorang dah spend about Rp500000. perghhh! macam mahal gle je kan. tapi kalau bahagi ngan 2775(anggaran), lebih kurang je kalau belanja kat Malaysia.

So, hostel kami..waahhh, bagus sekali. I like! 1 tempat shower and 1 toilet kat dalam bilik. bestla. bilik agak besar, share 2 orang je. ada katil, almari baju besar 2, meja belajar 2. selesa banget. cuma toilet die takde tempat flush. why? Gua pun gak tau. tapi memang agak common kalau pergi kat kost (bilik sewa), toilet die memang camtuh. senang cakap flush secara manual la.

last week, kami ade orientasi a.k.a OSPEK. kami dibahagikan kepada 55 kelompok (group). and saya dapat kelompok 36:). dalam kelompok tu semua Indonesian kecuali saya. jadi dari kelompok inilah saya dapat teman dari Indonesia. Alhamdulillah, mereka semua baik2 banget. sangat caring dan memahami. and lucu juga. they taught me Indonesian language and a bit Javanese. And, kalau saya kurang ngerti apa yang mereka ngomong, mereka akan try translate sampai saya faham walaupun kadang2 tu saya cakap je saya faham, tapi sebenarnya tak faham pun. kesian kat dorang lho.:(

During the orientation week, aduhhh, capek banget. tiap2 hari saya balik malam. berbuka kat luar.balik bilik je, mandi and solat isya' then terus tidur. nak terawih pun tak larat. pastu esok pukul 6 dah kene naik bas pergi ke FK (Fakultas kedokteran). OSPEK ni lain sket dari sistem orientasi kat Malaysia. kalau kat Malaysia banyak aktiviti2 yang outdoor kan. jalan sana-sinila. tapi OSPEK, banyak gile ceramah. siap tidur2 lagi time ceramah tuh. and ade homework untuk kelompok pula tuh. Sebab nilah ktorang sume balik bilik malam. nasib baik, ada teman Indonesia yang punya motorcycle. saya dihantarin ke hostel menaiki motorcycle. oh ya, dengan memakai rok (skirt) panjang pula tuh.

tapi sekarang OSPEK sudah habis. tapi untuk pelajar Malaysia, weekend ni kitorang ade sort of orientasi ngan senior2 Malaysia. and kali ni, maybe banyak aktiviti lasak kot. adeh, dahla bulan puasa. errr.

food? makanan kat sini kering la. kalau makan nasi kat Malaysia kan, esti ade kuah segala bagai, tapi kat sini..mostly kering je...tak berkuah pun. tapi makanan sedapla jugak. masih banyak yang mahu di-explore!

Apa-apa hal pun, next week, kuliah dah start dah. rasa macam cuak pula. Harap2 sumenya berjalan ngan lancar, insya-Allah. Amin. every 7 weeks, kitorang akan ade exam deh.

rajin-rajin belajar ye nabilah!

setakat ni, JOGJA BESTLA. cuma kene hati2 nak makan, or jalan2 sebab banyak penyeluk saku a.k.a pencopet. harap semuanya akan baik2 sahaja buat kami di sini.:)

p/s: pix ade tapi malas nak letak. fb je la..heeeeee:D

dear liar.

2010-08-04T16:52:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

Being almost 19 years old has taught me a lot in life. And i'm pretty sure I'll learn a lot in the future as 'the older you get, the more you will learn'. But at this point of life, I've learned soooo many things that I could barely differ things between the good ones and the bad ones. And of course LYING TO MY FACE wasn't a thing that should be grouped into the good ones.

Dear liar,
I love you when I don't know that you're lying about something to make me pleased,
but I hate you when you're busted with all your big lies.
tipu sunat is okay when it's about something that is no big deal.
tapi kalau nak tipu untuk cover all the trashy things you've done, but the reality is I knew, it really hurts me.
so, stop it lah. stop hurting people okay.
Right now, I'm still holding my patient, keeping my mouth shut. But who knows when will I reach my boiling point, screaming out what I've kept for long time, revealing all your lies one by one right to your face!
If you think you are happy doing this now, believe me, life is not as easy as you think as there is karma.
One day, you will be ashamed of being a big liar and at that time you are going to lose what you have owned since long time ago.

hammy-hammy

2010-07-14T03:02:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum.

it's 2.05 a.m..but i still can't sleep. why? because, i just got back from Alor Setar and i was asleep for almost the whole 5 hours journey. hebat tak? haha. so, at this moment, i feel so energetic and that's why i am writing this post. by the way, there's nothing much to say about Kedah because i went there not for vacation but to visit my sister's spouse's family which just moved from Langkawi to Alor Setar.

Back from Kedah, the first thing i've done was checking my hammy-hammy's. what's a hammy-hammy? Later, i'll tell you. okay. Alhamdulillah, they are all still ALIVE. then i counted them. one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine and TEN only? one hammy-hammy is missing! ok, cuak! i called Ayah, Ibu and my second sister whether they took the 11th hammy-hammy. but, negative. they didn't.

okay, we (me + my eldest sister) searched around the house for the hammy-hammy. but we didn't find it. we were wondering; maybe it was eaten by the cat. might be. or maybe it was still in our house and hiding itself from us for no reason. this freaked us out as we always sleep in the hall, on the floor (covered by toto). and if it is still out there, there's a possibility for it to bite us during we were sleeping. doesn't that sound scaarrryyy? auwww! my sister play it safe as she decided too sleep on the sofa. tak aci betul! and i'm gonna sleep on the floor. tak mungkin hammy-hammy datang. *positive thinking*

tapi saya tak megantuk lagi. while i was busy reading people's blog, i saw something black moving at the bottom part of my toto. i thought it was a cockroach, a big one. for the second thought, it might be the lost hammy-hammy. i switched on the light, and i saw the lost hammy-hammy. oh, there you are naughty hammy-hammy. maybe it misses me a lot that it would like to sleep with me tonight. ahahah. but then the little creature was sent to its home sweet home. fuhhhh, nasib baik saya tak tidur lagi, kalau tak mesti penyek hammy-hammy tu nanti.

hamster a.k.a hammy-hammy

hammy-hammy sounds cute, rite? :P

I want to make a dress right now.

2010-07-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

*sigh*.
it has been a long time since the last time i touched my mum's sewing machine and i am kind of missing it. seriously! only a few knew that i do have interest in making clothes.
The first dress i had made was for my Barbie doll. i still remember how i cut some old t-shirts and socks and with a needle and a spool of black thread, i managed to come out with some dresses for my dolls. i just realized it NOW that those dresses were terrible. as if the dolls could talk, they would say "OMG, is this a dress or what? I'm not gonna wear it!" but i was 11 back then, so OK la kot dah boleh menjahit. haha. A friend of mine don't even know how to sew the small torn part of her baju kurung. And guess what..she was 18 that time! So, mama's out there, do teach your daughters or even your sons to do simple sewing steps. seriously, they need them :P

During the holidays, after SPM, i made a dress for myself from my mother's old skirt. Although the needlework wasn't that neat, i'm still proud of it. the first handmade dress for HUMAN! it is mostly black and there is yellow pattern at bottom part of it. a vintage dress, i think. i wore it for a few times and even when I was on trip to Langkawi with Bear. Bear's mum even said the dress is nice and it is still hanging in my room as i write this post. :D

however, my mum's sewing machine got broken when i used it to make the mentioned dress. my bad. no more sewing machine but seriously, i do want to make a dress rite now. mode: sewing.
fabrics, where are you?...here i come! *with scissors in hand*

oouch!

oh, anyone selling cheap second hand sewing machine? buzz me!

so, welcome back.

2010-07-07T17:54:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum..

so, here i am...writing something so that my blog will be active again. i hooppe soo!

Right now, i'm in the middle of not-too-long holiday, as i just ended my A-level course 3 weeks ago and waiting for my result.takut sangat!
At first, I have the thought of getting a part time job, but I don't think anyone would hire me because I only can do the job for a month besides the fact that there will be no transport. sad:(
I did spot a job at one shop selling shoes at Tesco Semenyih and the income is rm700++..I think it's WOW!
i mean, the job is not that tough and tiring like working at fast food restaurants or cashier at hypermarket. Only dealing with SHOES, which is one of my eye-obsession! I like looking at shoes but buying them? well, let me think about it..errmm..are they worth? where and when i shall wear them? naaahhh, no needlah. The last time i bought a pair of shoes was...bile ek? err...i don't remember, but of course this year and I used them on the Graduation night.

a pair of black gladiator heels.

As my first mission already failed, so I go to the next plan which is learning cooking! along this holidays, I've learned cooking 'daging masak blackpepper', 'nasi lemak( full set)', mustards in oyster sauce, shrimp paste fried rice (nasi goreng belacan). well. simple2 sudah. next recipe will be chicken curry and bubur durian. i'm thinking of pengat pisang as well cause dah lameeeee tak makan pengat pisang. plus macaroni kot. Oh, wish me luck.

my first trial of nasi lemak; does it look tasty?..:P

But then, there is ONE thing that i'm afraid of, which I believe some other girls would also worry about. WEIGHT! ohh..tell me how can I can destroy the fact that gaining weight is so muccchhh easier than losing some kg's..Aaaarghh..! The last holidays (after SPM), I put almost 10 kilos in my body. haha.. well done! so here I am, being a kind of ~~fat~~ large-sized woman. way larger than 36"- 26"- 36". totally. ergh, whatever.

i declare a war.

2010-04-16T03:04:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t..

just wanna speak out loud;
I DECLARE A WAR AGAINST HER.
who the heck is she?
well, it's not proper to state a name here.
but i just want you to know (if you read this post),
if your promises are meant to be broken, don't make any..okay?
so i'm declaring a war against her and it will be ended only when the safe word is spoken.

p/s: hint for the the safe word. the initial is 'S'.

it's too late to regret.

2009-12-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

Salam.

AS ended 2 weeks ago, which was a day before my 18th birthday.

It is such a relief at first. But as days passed, i'm starting to freak out about the outcoming result.

3 strong A's of course will always be my target. however, my head keeps saying it's ~~impossible~~.(please be possible!) My perfomance during the exam was terrible, really was! It was such the biggest disaster ever happened to me and I admit that I gave the worst answers on those papers. I feel insecure about the result, i really am! And seriously, I AM SCARED. please time, do stop! I don't want to meet with MISS FEBRUARY 2010 which will show me the white paper with grades on it. Oh no, not yet!

I just realised that there's no way to turn back. I wish time machine is right next to me so that I can go back to June 09 and start all over again. But, it won't happen.

it's too late to regret, isn't it?

Now, the second semester has just started. I must be more serious than the previous semester as I'm gonna sit for A2 in May/June 2010, which is the duration is not enough for me. Plus, I was told that the subjects are getting complicated to be understood and so are the questions, getting harder. Not to be forgotten, I also will be sitting for Entrance Exam and IELTS around March-April.

So, I'm making a list of changes for this semester and i HAVE to do it! :

1) No extra times for sleep anymore.

2) Go to the library every night. or at least 4 nights a week.

3) Do not postpone the exercises given.

4) Read the textbook before and after the class.

5) Do more exercises. Finish the past years questions.

6) Do not frequently go back home. Study at home? trust me, it's not gonna work.

7) Keep meeting your teachers if there are problems in study.

8) Behave yourself. Be a better, optimistic person.

9) Pray to Allah more and more.

10) Respect and love everybody around you in order to seek bless.

"YA, ALLAH..help us in our study,

ease us to understand better in what we've learned and are about to learn,

give us the best result for A-LEVEL or any examination,

help us to pursue our study in UGM and ease our journey to become doctors."

-Amin, amin ya rabbal'alamin-

French words. miss them!

2009-10-29T13:08:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

yes, yes I know I've been cruel to you dear Mister Bloggie.

I've been busy recently for my AS and I forgot to feed you with my words.

ahah!

btw, I dont know why, but lately, my mind keeps thinking bout french words:

fromage, pomme de terre, stylo, amies, copain, etc. etc.

It has been 2 years since the last french lesson, quite enough time to lose memory.

And I'm afraid i might forgot the grammars, pronounciation..and whatsoever related to F.R.E.N.C.H..

je pense que

je suis..

je...hurm~

I guess I MISS FRENCH CLASS.

(although I always ACCIDENTALLY slept in class.:p)

and I MISS MADAM WAN RAFIDAH too..

merci2!

c'est tout!

when 30++ SEMASHURIANS "break+fast" at nando's

2009-09-13T00:49:00.007+08:00

salam..

yesterday was a total fun!
the "break+fast" or in the other word 'iftar' was a blast.
credits to azila amirah che wahab; the one who invited me to the unofficial occassion.

oh, the venue: nando's midvalley.
kind of havoc. (kind of? it's more than 'kind of')
btw, give a big clap coz semashurians managed to change the nando's into a noisy pasar malam.
haha. bravo2. kte berjaya menarik perhatian pengunjung2 lain di situ. ni baru 30 plus, blom the whole crowd!
tpi, bising gle larhhh kat nandos's tuh. kecoh.
everyone talked. non-stop.
spilling out their hot stories; bout studies, new bf/gf and err...crush, and etc.
but i like it like that.
i miss to hear that particular noise. the noise that reminds me of SEMASHUR, the jungle-jail-like school.
yet, it is still the place where we turned from kids into great teenagers!

ok. back to the topic!
after the maghrib prayer, we ensembled back in front of nando's.
we stood there and chatted with each other and also having a few photoshoot session.
btw, rugi sangat2 coz i had no camera with me. my hp was at Ayah which is just freshly taken from a hp shop in Malacca for repairment. but today, I got my SE w705 back! yeay!

then at 9.30, the KTT crews (me, ain, bella taib, nuril and afiq) blah from that place. we reached the nilai station at 11 something, nseb bek dh sewa kereta, so tak payah susah2 nak cari cab.
ahaaaa, credits to nuril for being unpaid driver dat nite. but nuril drive..pergh! smpi ktorg kat blakang pun cuak!

after returned the car to uncle sham, we went back to KTT. at that time, it was already the curfew hour. unexpectedly, there was a lecturer (kot) waiting at pak guard's post and as expected kitorg kne tahan and kne brainwash plak kat situ. adeh!

well, shall we call it as "a happy story with unhappy ending".

the girls.

more girls.

and, boys like girls. ahah!

the chaotic pre-AS.

2009-09-03T16:10:00.004+08:00

salam..

i'm tired; of answering or more specific 'menembak', 'merapu' on the KILLER pre-AS questionssss (lot of them).

my fault, of course.

I DID read all those notes given by the lecturer, the complicated textbook.

still, i became BLURRED as soon as I read the questions.

adeh, it scares me a lot.

AS is only a month+ to go.

go nabilah go!

I got something on my birthday 4 years ago.

2009-08-27T02:04:00.005+08:00

assalamualaikum:)

I don't know why but suddenly, while doing some revision on biology just now (pre-AS is coming!),

I remembered...

4 years ago, on 21/11/06, which was the date that i turned 15 in that year, there was a friend of mine gave me a videoclip through a social site with the message;

"...hye! s-pecialli 4 ur burpdei, here's a music video of my fav song, juz for u...

hear u me...there's a message in dat song, u noe...hope u get sense of it!..."

Because of my 'kemalasan' to wait for the videoclip to load, I didn't watch the videoclip on the spot.

i mean like "nanti2 la..."

then i replied to the sender;

'thanks:)..yeah, i got the message..'(although i did not watched it yet)

BUT! I never watched the videoclip until just now, right before i wrote this 'masterpiece'.

after 4 years..i just realised that the videoclip is about the song 'HEAR YOU ME by JIMMY EAT WORLD.

It was the song from the movie CINDERELLA STORY.

here's the lyrics;

There's no one in town I know

You gave us some place to go.

I never said thank you for that.

I thought I might get one more chance.

What would you think of me now,

so lucky, so strong, so proud?

I never said thank you for that,

now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.

Hear you me my friends.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

May angels lead you in.

So what would you think of me now,

so lucky, so strong, so proud?

I never said thank you for that,

now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.

Hear you me my friends.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

May angels lead you in.

And if you were with me tonight,

I'd sing to you just one more time.

A song for a heart so big,

god wouldn't let it live.

May angels lead you in.

Hear you me my friends.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

May angels lead you in.

Hear you me my friends.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

May angels lead you in.

Seriously, i felt totally bad cause the lyrics are so meaningful and seems like this song meant..err..something.

(^_^)"

don't u think so?

dear Mr. Sender,

thank you so much.

i really2 appreciate it..

it is just that I'm too late to get sense of it.

*désolé*

air sejuk di bulan Ramadhan

2009-08-22T23:28:00.003+08:00

salam..

firstly, i want to wish;

SALAM RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK

Alhamdulillah, berjaya jugak aku berpuasa pada hari ini..
another 29 days to go!

berbicara tentang puasa ni teringat plak time aku puasa kecik2 dulu.
cerita yang aku ingin ceritakan ni tajuknya

AIR SEJUK DI BULAN RAMADHAN..

pelakon utama: ni blog aku, akula main actress..haha!
pelakon sampingan: ex-Bibik ak..

Petang itu cuaca agak panas. kehangatannya membuatkan tekak gadis kecil (aku la tu:p) itu semakin haus.
die menjadi tak keruan. berkali-kali dia ke dapur untuk memastikan line btol2 clear.
yelah, bilik bibiknya itu sungguh dekat dengan dapur.
kalau die buat buat projek yang sekian lama terancang dikepalanya itu, msti kantoi punye.

die menyapa bibiknya..

dia: bik, tgh buat ape bik?

bibik: tgh lipat kain dong. kenapa?

dia: takde sja tnye..

setelah memastikan bibiknya btol2 concentrate melipat kain2 yang baru diangkat, dia lantas melangkah ke arah peti ais.
dia cuba membuka peti ais seperlahan yang boleh, agar tiada tenaga bunyi yang dihasilkan...tapi.."kreeeekkk" bunyi jugak..kantoi!

argh, asal dah kantoi tu kantoi gakla. tanpa rasa bersalah die terus menuang air sejuk dari peti ais tu ke dalam cawan.
tak cukup dengan itu, dicampurkan pula air tersebut dengan beberapa ketul ais. biar mantap beb!

tiba2..seperti yang diduga..

bibik: waduh2, kamu mau bikin apa sama itu air peti ais?

dia: ala bik..nak kumur2 je..mulut ni kering la, tak selesa.

bibik: iyela tu, ye ke?

dia: iye...btol!

Pada pendapat pembaca, adakah si dia mmg betol kumur2 or diteguknya seluruh isi cawan itu?

agak2 nye korang tau kan ape yg berlaku.

p/s; sekarang dah insaf dah. ni time ni tgh kecik2,
tak paham dosa pahala lagi..hehe:p
selamat berpuasa!

a Vivacious Day

2009-08-19T22:57:00.003+08:00

salam..

alohaaaa...yes2! at last dpt gak online!

ni sume sbab malas nak beli topup wifi. huuu~

oh, last monday tbe2 kelas cancelled..yeay2!

Happy Vivacious Day.

after all great pressure; study, study, study..KTT (JAP! aku study ke?)

at last, i got the chance to hav some fun, to enjoy the life as teenager.

movie.

bowling.

karaoke.

and window shopping..haha!

i went to Alamanda with my classmates, Ana and Sakinah.

we were so eager to watch The Proposal..

best la dat movie..aku ske2!

then, we had some time to play bowling; only a game.

it has been a long time since my last game..

but then i got 119; which is shockingly great for me.

it broke the Nabilah's life-time-record. hehe!

later, it still a few hours before 'buka-puasa' time coz one of us planned to buka-puasa at Kenny Roger's.

sooooooo, ktorg pegila karaoke. we sang 6 songs only.

but then, we got sore-throat after that..

haha!

ahah!

some of the list that we want to buy after i got JPA's money.

-bags

-clothes

-shoes

-yadaaa...yadaaa...

adoyai, abesla duit kami..aiyark!

so, MID-SEM is next week!

2009-07-29T19:08:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum..

pejam celik pejam celik..

it's almost sebulan dah aku duk kat bumi ktt yg kecik ni..

hehe:p

tapi, knape ek?

aku ni maaalaaasss gle nak blaja..

uwaaa:((

argh, perangai aku yg kuat tido pun still tak hilang2 lagi!

housemate aku rajin gle blaja..

aku? hampeh..

apela nak jadi ngan cik nabilah ni..adoyai!

more dramatic, next week ade mid-sem!

warghh! takotnyaaaa..

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku,

Kau jadikanlah hamba-Mu ini seorang yang rajin belajar.

Permudahkanlah aku untuk menuntut ilmu.

Kau jauhkanlah hamba-Mu ini dari godaan syaitan yang direjam.

Amin.

Malaysia dan MU?

2009-07-19T12:56:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum x)

yeah, ape yg hot in this post?
of cozla bout the event yg aku pegi semlm..
MU VS M'SIA!
or is it better to be written as M'sia vs MU?
kte kene mendahulukan negara kite dulu, kan? kan?

it was my first time;
- pegi Stadium Bukit Jalil.
- tgk bola dgn tiket berbayar (b4 diz tgk yg free, time drjah bpe ntah)
- tgk bola dri minit pertama hingga ke minit terakhir..hakhak!

well, frankly speaking I'M NOT INTO SOCCER..
haha..tapi tgk live ni best gak:)
jerit2 mcm org giler...
ini satu proses untuk melepaskan tension kan?
arghhh, lepas la sket pressure blaja kat ktt tuh..

siapa yg aku support?
during the game, i wore red t-shirt with black cardigan.
so, dari sudut pakaian je, nampak sgtla aku sokong MU ek?
hehe..tapi dlm hati ni aku sokong negara sendiri beb!
go MALAYSIA go!

the result, mstila satu m'sia dah tau ek..
3:2
yg 3 tu sudah semestinya MU!
still, that's awesome bagi malaysia, takdela kalah terok, beb!

oh, itu sajala tentang bola..
walaupun tak dapat seat..and kitorang just duk kat atas lantai,
tpi view best woo..
beli ticket rm58 tpi duk kat rm68 nye area.
hahaha!
btw, esok malam klu tak silap ad re-match..
tapi, time tu aku dah kat KTT..

okla2..
itu sajala nak tulis..

post ni aku karang 19/7/09..cume publish lmbt je..

aku sedang belajar

2009-07-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum:)

tengah2 sibuk blaja pun sempat lagi on9..
hehe..inilah remaja, ye dok?

it was the first week of lessons in KTT, tpi..
maths dh msuk chapter 4 ..
"wow!"
chemistry lak msuk dh msuk chapter 2, which dh blaja time spm dulu..
tpi bpe buln cuti, abes sume dah tak ingat..ayoyo!

as my fingers type these words, aku ade byk latihan maths yg nak kene wat..
tpi....still gak nak on9..
ala..kejap je..(kejapla sgt kan...)

oh, ya..my new schedule!
lagi pack sgt2 drpd kat uia dulu..
uwaaaa..skrg bru bsyukur ngan jadual kat uia..huhu~
camnila manusia, kan?

esok ari Rabu, means hari bio sedunia..muahaha!
bukan ape..esok 5 solid hours weh blaja bio..
pergh!
cmne tuh, hurm..

btw, skrg aku tgh duk pening..
byk gler duit gne lately..
ye la nak beli buku sana-sini..
kat dlm purse ni tinggal 5 hinggit je beb!
nak g bank, tpi malas la plak..
adoyai!

c'est tout pour aujourd'hui<---not sure the spelling is correct or not..
(that's all for today)

*grin*

orientation week

2009-07-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

salam..
at last...
bleh gak on9.
so here it is, the orientasi week again..
aku dpt group 7 which the fasilitator is my senior at SEMASHUR dulu kala..
mr F. but im sure die tak kenl ak, ak pun kenl die gitu2 je..
we never talked before..

group 7..
kind of fun, yeah! okla gak..
tpi ad sorg ni kan...argh! sesi mengumpat nak start la plak!
ok2..better stop before aku menyebabkan korg dapat dosa kan..
haha..

bout my new place..
COOL gle! ktorg dapat apartment yg ad 2 bedroom, living room, dapur, balkoni,
and of cozla toilet..
4 org satu rumah...pergh! best gle..rse mcm duk rumah bujang plak..
memang la kot..
tpi yg lebih COOL lagi, klas, kafe, lab, whatsoever facilities kat sini serius dekat gle ngan apartment..
lagi 10 min nak start kelas pun baru bgun tido..
hahahaha!
and ktorg ari2 bleh kuar..tpi kne blik b4 midnite la..

ape lagi yg nak dicoretkan ek?
ahah!
this friday, as usually we have to perform. as for our group, ktorg kne buat choral speaking which i think quite childish, still it's fun:D
tpi penatla training..
last training je ktorg blik kul 12 lebih...
tpi takpe, just for minggu orientasi baa..

the FOOD?
damn..more expensive than cfs UIA..
so, kne la kurgkan mkn..
adoyai..

i think dat's all la..
this is the only the beginning..
taktau lagi cmne ble dah belajar nanti kan..
harap2 jadual tak pack as in cfs dulu..
hehe..

p/a: first time on9 kat ktt, beb!

no longer a cfsiium student.

2009-07-05T00:56:00.004+08:00

salam..

oh, ya..a week ago, aku dah meninggalkan
CENTRE FOR FOUNDATION STUDIES IIUM..
why?
sebab..sebab..6 julai ni, aku akan mendaftar di
KOLEJ TEKNOLOGI TIMUR, SEPANG..
kenape?
coz, insya-Allah aku akan membuat A-level di sana sbg persediaan ke negara jiran..

some people asked me with the kind of annoying tone;

''nape nak g sana, malaysia kan better..''
''aku tak paham la, nape ko nak gi indon huh?"

plus, some of them made their shocking expressions such dat they were shocked with my stupidity to pursue my studies in indonesia, leaving the seat dat i already got in cfsIIUM.

walaupun pada mulanya, ble org tanya ''ko dpt mane meh?"..
aku malu nak jawab..tpi lama2 tuh, aku dh okey la..bangga la gak dpt indon.
some people wud die utk dptkan scholarship, so why shud i be ashamed?
tpi bile orang memberikan reaksi seperti dinyatakan di atas;

surely, i felt insulted dengan reaksi kelompok ini.
oh, mmg la, aku dpt g indon je.
korg dpt gi mane. US. AUS. UK. IRE.
and mane2 jela yg standardnya jauh lebih baik dari negara yg telah jpa tawarkan kat aku.
still, it's a scholarship,okay..Alhamdulillah.

bukannye aku desperate sgt nak study kat overseas..mahupun over-the-sea.
yang aku kejarkan biasiswa.
apsal? korg yg banyak komen ni nak bayarkan ke study aku?
plus, indonesia ade jugak universiti yang bagus okeyhhh.
gi la usha ranking universiti.

ape2 hal pun, sethn buat a-level kat KTT, aku harap aku akan dapat melayakkan diri ke sana,
ke universiti yang bagus di indonesia.
tak kisahla blaja kat mane pun, asal aku blaja elok2..and berjaya dptkan ape yg aku nak.

not to be forgotten, thanks to orang2 yang support keputusan aku ini..
parents, siblings, some of frens, teacher.

wish me luck, ok!

p/s; maaf andai ade yg terasa. tpi ini luahan perasaan je..hehe:)

kawan2 di cfsIIUM,
rindu korang!
rindu chickenchop murh!
rindu naik lif kat KC!
also,
abang technician yg hensem..!
muahaha!

jadual yg pack!

2009-06-09T23:22:00.003+08:00

tu diaaa...
my new timetable..pack dowh..
tak aci!
apsal bear nye tak pack?
roomies ak pun tak pack<---depa takde class on friday woo..masyuk gle!
kenapa?
why?
warghhhh!!

sekian sahaja utk segmen tak puas hati..

p/s: biru tu maths, kuning tu english, pink tu bio, oren tu arab..adoyai!

gadis litar

2009-06-07T22:06:00.005+08:00

salam..:)

hehe..suspens tak tjuk post kali ni?
spe gadis litar? mane dia?
die seksi ke? hot?
haha..sabar2..klu nk tau keep reading..

btw, last saturday (060609),
aku, adik-bradik aku, abg frhan and aida gi la kat litar sepang..
for the first time..ak tgk race..haha!
race ape?
SEPANG 1000KM RACE

haha..ade sorg kwn kakak ak msuk race tuh..
tu yg ktorg g sana tuh..
she is in the only woman team..sponsored by redbull, if im not mistaken..
btw, it was a blast at first..
yela..tgk kete biase tpi ble dh paint plus modified, bunyik kuat..pergh!!
kooooolll glerr...!

the superb cars were menarik...
sambil2 cuci mata tgk kete tuh..hehe, usha la gak gadis2 litar yg hot la..hot ke?
ktorg lagi hot beb!<----perasan!
haha..ak ngan aida berangan..klu la ktorg jdi gadis litar..yg islamic la..
GADIS LITAR MUSLIMAH yg cmni...

wakaka! ok tak?

mule2 tu best la tgk kete2 tu strt lumba..
tpi dh lame tu ngantok la plak..
ye la duk tgk kete2 tuh berulang2 lalu kat depan korg..tak ke ngantok?
hoho..dhla dri kul 12pm smpi 9pm..gle tak?
then, sempat la plak pas smbhyg zohor tuh..ak ngan aida tdo jap dlm surau..
siap ade air-cond tuh..masyuk gle..

oh, ya not to be forgotten..
our lunch dat day was burger ayam special mahal..
logik tak burger ayam special yg biasa tuh RM5 satu..
ekeleh...bukannye sedap mana pun..dh la sos sket..jahat3!!

about 4, ktorg pun blik la umah..
smpi kat umah..dlm kul 6++ cmtuh
"aduhai lapaq lapaq..."
...perut ak mule bermonolog..
ape lgi..misi mncari mknan bermula..
nseb bek ade gerai jual nsi lemak kat area umah ak tuh..
ak yg dh kangen bangat (rindu sgt) nk bwk kete ni gi la kuar ngan aida..
eleh..takde la jauh sgt pun..jln kaki pun bleh..tpi tak mo! nk drive gak!:p
bestnye bwk kete..rse cm dh pro lak..haha!

mlm tu , pas mghrib ktorg gi sepang circuit blik..
time ktorg smpi tuh, dorg lom abes race lagi..
mak aih tak penat ke..
9 hours; 182 laps; 1000km..
ni jarak ulang-alik dri johor ke perlis..haha!

lagi beberapa minit kul 9 bru race tuh abes..
pemenangnya adalah: CAR NO 21!!!
oops, sori..driver die ak tak kenal..hoho!

pic hot cars!

video race time siang

p/s: best la:D! at least ad gak experience tgk race..yeay!

gaya hidup baru

2009-06-01T16:41:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum wbt:)

ya ini dia...sekarang aku dh ada gelaran baru.

a week ago, aku telah selamat digelar sebagai student of cfsiium.
alhamdulillah. walaupun, pada awalnya ramai yang expect aku dpt gi oversea. tapi, NOPE..
being a jpa scholar for local pun dh kire bgus bagi aku.
cume aku tension btol, apsal surt tak dapat lagi...adeh!
susah la nak merancang perbelanjaan cmni. hehe!

btw, baru aku sedar dat life in a foundation centre is totally different from school life!
indipendence is compulsory.
kalu dulu, time zaman2 skola..klu ade ape2 aktiviti or klas tambahn ke, msti ade announcement.
tpi skg ni, we all kene jln gi department masing2 (dhla jauh!), and baca segala mende kat notice board tuh.
klu tak, mmg ketinggalan la. nak harapkan kwn, bukannya semua org sama jadualnya.
eventhough we are in the same course. oh, yeah. last week is the ta'aruf week (minggu orientasi). Alhamdulillah, orientasi takde la dahsyat2 sgt.
cuma, takde outdoor activity at all..so, i can say..it's bored. tpi okla...
lepak je, takde kalut2, jadual pun tak pack. tu yang pling penting:D

pictures at cfsiium field:

with old frens with new frens

ape lagi ek?..haaa..english placement test (EPT) and arabic placement test(APT).
during the ta'aruf week, the EPT and APT were held. EPT is important dat the result will determine how long will us be in this foundation centre.
Alhamdulillah, i got level 6 which makes me gonna stay here for only a year.
tpi kan, ade org ckp klu science stream kene 2 thun gak.
this make me totally puzzled.
takpela, tunggu je schedule kluar..

so, i think dat's all for today's post. btw, i hope and i wish dat i am able to be the top 100 to get into Kuliyyah of Medicine in the main campus, KUANTAN..amin:)

kisah pak guard

2009-05-21T09:58:00.005+08:00

assalamualaikum:D..

pak guard?
well, yup..
ini kisah pak guard yg jaga kat seblah umah aku.
it was about 8 o'clock in the morning.
and slalunye aku ske usha pak guard..haha. takde keje kan.
weyh, dun get me wrong!
aku usha ada motif okeyhhh..

motif:
1) nk tgk pak guard ade ke tak..klu takde, tak payah pki tudg nak gi sidai kain.
2) kot2la ad pak guard yg hensem..rezeki tuuuuu!
3) nak tgk pak guard tu watpe..<---sibuk je, kan?

usha punye usha..tbe2 aku tgk pak guard tu sedap je tdo..
aik, bru msuk keje dh tdo dh?
tak bleh jadi ni!
so, me and my sis got a plan!

D: B, gi amek wisel dlm bilik kak nurul tuh..ngahaha!
B: wokeyh.

so, ape lgi..aku pun tiup ar.

first blow; nothing..
2nd blow; tak bgun2 jugak!
3rd blow (even longer); still..ZzZzzz

D: mak aih..tdo mati ni!
B: adik pun rase camtu..tiup lagi..haha!

last blow (longer, longer); baru die bgun..haha!

seriously, die cam bingung..
he looked around and mybe searched for the source of the wisel blow..
after a few times he turned left and right..
then...then...DIA TIDUR BALIk!
adesh!

"mission incomplete"

next chapter: UIAM

2009-05-07T01:03:00.002+08:00

INTERNATIONAL ISLAMIC UNIVERSITY
malaysia
asasi perubatan

firstly, ALHAMDULILLAH.
secondly, YESZZA!
yup, UIAM is gonna be my next place to gain knowlegde..
here is the anak tangga skola2 aku terdahulu;

tadika sri ayu,
sk tmn sri gombak,
sk kelibang,
sk pekan 1,
smslabuan,
SEMASHUR.

hoho, tmpat blaja baru dgn cabaran yg baru. which i believe,
the bigger the challenges gonna be.
apa2 pun, yg penting aku bleh adapt dgn bidang yang aku pilih ni.

oh, ya..dri sumber2 yg boleh dipercayai, awl2 lagi nti ada
test bi and test arab utk menetapkan tahap student. oh nooo..!

test bi= cuak
test arab= cuak.cuak.cuak.SUPER-DUPER CUAK!

ler..dahla aku ni totally ZERO wif ARAB..hoho.
ape nk jadi, jadi la..

mood: hepi coz bleh jmpe kwn2..yeay!
unhappy coz kene tdo awl, bgun awl, iron bju, assignment, blaja blik. adesh!

graduation day..

2009-05-04T21:15:00.009+08:00

assalamualaikum dear readers:),

like i said in previous post, i want to write bout convo ryte?
eh, apsal tbe2 speaking-meaking niyh?
hoho, ok ar..aku tak nak la cam skema sgt tulis blog niyh..nnti cam bosan lak korg nak bace..
(eh2, apasal aku cam prasan je ade org nak bce blog niyh..hahaha)

btw, aku nak mule bercerita nih.
oh ya, tarikh penting is 25/4/09.
tpi all ex-semashurian shud daftar on 24/4/09 which was after school hour;
i think sbb supaya ktorg tak amek perhatian student2 semashur yg akan sebuk tgk tingkap each time ade kete masuk compound semashur..eventhough cikgu tgh mengajar kat depan.
plus, klu xde cikgu kat kelas pun, junior2 yg begitu menyayangi
ex-senior mereka ni akan berlari-lari anak nak gi salam, peluk cium..
(aku tak ckp aku) haha!

perjalanan aku.
from sabak brnam, aku naik bus ngan athiah smpila kat puduraya.
oh tidak, aku BENCI puduraya! why?
coz ade promoter amende ntah telah membuatkan duit aku rm40 (big amount for jobless person)..arghh!
then ktorg singgah kl sentral jap. lepak2. then, tros gi SEMASHUR, sayang kamu muahx2!
oh ya, thanx to bella bobs' parents for the transport (ktm btg kali-SEMASHUR)

oh (again), dat nite supposed to be havoc! tpi tbe2 perut aku g wat masalah.
sakit tak pasal2.
so i slept earlier dat nite, pas blik rehearsel. lepak2 jap. then tros tido.
the DAY! bgun2 je aku menggelbah coz bju x GOSOK lgi!!
dat morning, sumer org look GORGEOUS!
sume mke berseri2..ye lah, mana taknye..
dialog pagi itu:

org 1: weh spe ade foundation? compact powder?
org 2: a'ahla..spe ade ek? lipstick? celak?
org 3: korg jgn risau..aku ade..
org 4: (tbe2) weh aku nak gak!

hehe..GIRLS~

pgi itu kami mkn nasi lemak. fav food kat skola tuhhh. mkn2. pki jubah. photoshoot jap. beratur. ceremony started. aku nek pentas which was student pling last utk f5 yg nek pentas. ceremony ended. another photoshoot. mkn kat dm. blik. ( mls nak cter detail, haha)

special thanks:)

to ayah and ibu; thanks for coming and the teddy bear:D

to jihah jainis; thnks for the HELLO KITTY:)

to cikgu2; thanks for everything:]

to kwn2; thanks for making my life merrier:p

dh jmpe kwn2 pun aku rse masih x cukup lagi. nak jmpe lagi!

gmbar2 muke berseri

ini namanya JEALOUSY..[part 2]

2009-04-30T16:43:00.004+08:00

okie dokie, i bet nikki can't wait nk tau confession aku..
padahl xde pape pun..
hehe:p

DEAR NIKKI THE HOTTIE,
mu jange jeles kawe duk seblah 'toott'..
haha!
kawe tak cakap ape2 pun ngan die..
die lagila..pandang kawe pun duk eh.
haha..
plus, nik..u shudn't be jeles coz..
u and him dh BROKE UP!..
haha..like in ur blog..

btw, it was frustrating a bit when besoknye kedudukan ktorg sumer berterabur abes..
tbe2 la plak x cukup kerusi..adeh!
last2, nik bleh la tarik nafas lega coz im not sitting beside him..haha!

c'est tout..
next post, about convo:D

oh ya, ni la nik aqilah yg disebut2 tuh..haha:D

p/s: nik u look kurus la!

ini namanya JEALOUSY..

2009-04-24T22:09:00.001+08:00

Salam:),
by the time i wrote this post, aku sangat2 excited! Why?
Here i am, in Titiwangsa Hall..wif kwn2 lama. Best sgt ble dpt jmpe dorg sume. Ad yg ckp aku makin tggi, also ad yg ckp aku mkin lebar? WHAT??
(Eceh, bwat2 tkejut plak pdhal, aku mmg dh tau pun..hehe)
Plus, aku tgh duduk sebelah nik's biggest crush! N0t to be menti0ned 'the name' here..BAHAYA! Paham2 je la sape..hahaha! Ape, xpaham lg? (do ask me privately, ok:p)
Btw, aku ad confession utk nikkie!

DEAR NIKKIE THE HOTTIE,
(to be continued..)

coming soon

2009-04-22T09:07:00.003+08:00

salam..
hello mello, u guys:D..
ahah, today i woke up kinda early. and, lpas subuh takda tido2 ni. haha!
mlm tdi tdur pun takda la lmbt sgt. kul 12 lebeyh kot.
btw, i watched a movie kat channel star movie (413). pasal zombie2 la. shud be, it was a cite seram. but klakar gle...dhla ade part yg hilang filem, heroin tempang lak tuh. wakaka!
gelak tak abes2 smpi kene sound ngan kak nurul yg tgh gayut tuh. haha~

oh, ya..last saturday nite, aku g datarn pahalwan. best woo..well, i went there wif kak nurul, abg paan and dedek. konon2 nk tgk 'jangan tegur'. tpi lmbt sgtla. kl 12.20 bru start. so kitorg pun gi la beli tiket cte "COMING SOON"..cte hantu thailand..weeee~
it was 10 sumthing p.m at dat time, so ktorg g mkn2 dulu, men game jap, and amek2 gmbr..haha!

COMING SOON- ok cte ni cuak dowh. sound effect die lgi la menmbhkan ke'cuak'an ktorg..plus, it was a story mcm hantu tu kuar dri wyg, gle kan..and, the ghost akn gonna kill spe2 yg tgk cte tuh. yg tak bestnye, ending die hero+heroin die mati laa..haish! overall, aku kasik 4 bintg dri 5..okla tuh kan:D

zuhaira oh zuhaira..

2009-04-10T02:36:00.002+08:00

salam..
lately aku slalu terpikirkan kawan aku..
her name zuhaira. alahai, nak letak pic dia pun rak boleh sbb sumer pic kwn2 aku dh ilang!

btw, i wish u will read this a.s.a.p..
but aku tau impossible sgt dia nk baca blog aku ni, sbb dia tak tau aku dh ada blog..hurm:-?

dear zuhaira,
please call me a.s.a.p..
sgt2 risau bout u..
nk tau what are you up to rite now..
how's ur life?
did u get any job?
do u have enough money?
where are you know?
ganu or gombak?
dh apply upu?
pegi konvo tak?

kte slalu igt kamu zuhaira. kte tak dpt bayangkan klu kte jadi kamu. i mean, losing parents time kecik2.
membayangkan nseb kmu, mcm nk nangis..

yes, kte duk umah sorg,
time siang je coz parents keje.
kamu tinggal sorg,
day and nite..coz the only abg kmu ntah ke mana ntah..
kte tak masak,
and, my mum wud call and ask "adik nk mkn ape ari ni?"..
hari ni kmu tak makan,
takda sape nk tnye "zuhaira dah mkn?"..

so, sumtimes think bout zuhaira, bru aku sedar betapa hepinye hidup aku..
alhamdulillah..ya Allah..thnks 4 evrything!

free Wi-fi

2009-04-09T18:14:00.001+08:00

Salam..
Okey..just nak kecoh sket. Haha! Rite now(masa aku tulis post ni), aku tgh duk tggu makanan kat restoran d'henti batu 8, somewhere in perak. Btw, best gle sbb ad free wi-fi, so bleh la ak gedik nak try connect using my new hp..luckily, it WORKS! Hehe! Tu yang saja2 nak tulis blog..ngee!
Ok, the food is here! got to go! Bye2!

murah rezeki..

2009-04-08T01:33:00.006+08:00

salam..
ok-ok. aku tau aku dh buat salah. again, it's been a long time since the last post. oh, since result spm kuar tuh..alamak! from march 12 until this day, banyak perkara dah berlaku.

12/3/09:
hari yg cuak bgi spm 08 candidates, termsuklah aku! I was on my way to school, ble tibe2 nisa, org pertama yg menyampaikan berita gmbira kat aku pd ari itu.

(mesej msuk)
nisa: Tahniah. Kamu straight A1.

Yup, memg ringkas dan pendek tetapi padat yang amat. Smpi tbe2 aku rse nak nangis walaupun terasa macam si nisa ni duk main2. Utk kepastian, aku pun tepon si nisa ni.

"btol, kmu straight a1. name kmu ade dlm list!

Ya Allah..syukur alhamdulillah. mmg aku tak sangka btol. padahal, aku target 6-9 a jer.
p/s: oh, ya..quote terbyk dri kwn2 aku time ari tu.

1) congrats/tahniah/alhamdulillah
2) gle xsangke woo bella dpt straight a1
3) dhla ko kuat tdo, bella..

alamak..hehe!

23/03/09-27/03/09
'program pendedahan kerjaya doktor'. Fortunately, aku dh terpilih. Tpi ade ke ptut aku g mntk buat kat hospital melaka..aduyai! so..ak pun pegila duduk ngan ayah kat melaka tuh.
ape2 pun yg bestnya time ari first tuh, ade driver ofis ayah aku yg antar g hospital. bukan ape..ayah tak tau lagi selok-belok kat melaka ni. pergh, ade class gtu..wakaka! tpi secara overall program ni...best! emergency room, opertaion theatre, wad, bilik mayat..awesome!
cme ade la jugak cacat-celanya plus kurg didedahkan sgt. ape2 pun, i made new frens. "syuhada and shaheera"..nice+easygoing+lepak..siyes, nk jmpe korg lagi!

28/03/09
yeah..jalan2 kat melaka ngan ibu and ayah. ktorg naik beca, lawat itu ini. mkn cendol. etc etc.
seriously nk bwk kwn2 aku g cni..mari2 melawat melaka! i'll be the tour guider! ngge:D
Oh..and then, we went to jaya jusco. mkn2 and buy a new HANDPHONE for me..THANKS A LOT!

it's SE W705

31/03/09
Aaaaaa..interview jpa..oh tidak! all dat i can say is..i stuttered a lot..skrg ni tunggu keputusan je la..gagap sane, gagap sini. hurm, hanya Allah saje yg tau..ya Allah, murhkanla rezeki kami...amin!

01/04/09
APRIL FOOL? nope..this time, it's real! i got my own laptop! yeah! alhamdulillah..it's HP-branded laptop, mini and not that expensive. okeyla utk umur cam aku ni. lepas ni bleh la download sana sni.. maklumlah, hardisk laptop ayah yg ade sume stuff aku rosak. so, semua gmbr2 kwn2, lagu2 best, series yg aku dh dowbload sumenye hilang...uwaa! lpas ni kene la buat back-up. huhu~

fuhh...penat tuh nk type..bukan ape dh lame tak tulis blog, so tak tau dh cmne nk susun ayat..mybe cm skema sket kot..
apa2 hal..aku bersyukur sgt for evertything..ALHAMDULILLAH!

p/s: forgot to be mentioned, AKU DAH ADE LESEN P!! haha!

wargh, tak pasti!

2009-03-11T11:51:00.004+08:00

salam..
it's been a long time since i wrote the last post..
btw, skg ni aku tgh duk cuak. thinking bout tomorrow. wargh, taknak gi skola!
siyes, klu bleh aku mmg taknak pegi. tpi my dad just called and here's a part of the dialogue..

aku: ayah, sok adik taknak la gi skola. call je skola.
ayah: knape? esok ayah mmg nk g putrjaya pun. bleh la singgah skali.
aku: alaaa..yah..adik taknak. klu ade klas memandu cmne?
ayah: ckpla kat uncle tuh, nak amek result spm. once in ur lifetime. lagipun ayah dah amek
cuti dah.
aku: (kecewa) haa..okla..okla..klu nak g pun leps zohor..ke lepas asar ke..hehe!

nape aku taknak pegi?
coz, aku mmg siyes tak pasti cmne result aku wei. unpredictable. hopeless hope. dupdapdupdap!
i just dont know!

"may ALLAH give us straight A1's..amin!"
"bismillahitawakkaltu alallah"

the flashback

2009-03-03T21:18:00.006+08:00

salam..
dah lame rasenye ak x me-report-kan diri kat blog ni.
btw, ari ni takde ape yg spesel ataupun extraordinary. biase2 aje..
cume, tgh duk tgk2 gmbr kwn2 skola tdi, terigt plak kat diorg. ter-flashback plak ape yg kitorg buat kat skola, asrama...woo, sedihnye!
Di saat aku menaip blog ni, klu kat skola, hurm..mesti kitorg tgh g prep mlm. bukannye blaja, tpi duk borak2 kosong. homework, mcm biasa, lgsung x siap..
then, leps prep cepat2 g dewn mkn..time duk berlari2 ank tuh, smpatla aku berdoa "harap2 la kuey teow or nasi goreng mlm ni, amin!'..hehe!

the frens:)

hurm..klu nk cite, mmg patah jari aku..

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ape2 pun, bru2 ni iaitu pd 24/2, aku g jln2 ngan kwn2; nikki, bob, nisa..
it was a fun outing dat i think we shud do it more and more!!. poor bear and syera tak dpt join.xpe lain kali, ok!
times square (ts) adlh destinasi ktorg kali ni. i felt so excited sgt smpi tgh tggu diorg kat kl sentral tu, aku bleh plak tersenyum sorg2..ngee:D

at ts;

nikki: so, nak tgk cte ape ni?
nisa: hurm..cte ape ek?
bob: aku xkesah..
aku: kte tgk cte ape yg adela..yg dlm kul 12 cmtuh..

last2 kitorg tgk cte 'the curious case of benjamin button'..lame gle kat dlm wyg tuh. almost 3 hours! nseb bek cte die best. hehe..

the best part of our outing ni ialah SHOPPING! ahaha! mmg sume dh planning2 pun nk beli bju. sbb kat area ni bju mmg murh2 beb. mmg rmbang mate nk pilih mane satu. byk gle kedai offer bju. lepas pent2 duk pusing ts tuh, last2 sume dpt grab bju. ahaha..ble lgi nk shopping brg murh sama2 cmni. lgipun, ble shopping ngan kwn, aku rse lebih confident nk usha2 bju. yela, taste aku ngan my sis len sket...hehe!

the new bju

mase mmg trlampau mencemburui kitorg. bru je jln2 dh nk kul 4..so, at 4, ktorg g kl sentral. aduh, lapar la plak..

nisa: mkn ape? mcD ke?
nikki and bob: xleh2 kene boikot!
aku: jom la mkn kat subway..

it was our first time mkn kat subway..klakar btol time nk order tuh. tak tau nk pilih yg mne satu. lepas mkn tuh, kitorg pun separate..
aku naik train menghala ke seremban, diorg lak g rawang.
alaa..xpuas lagi la nk jln2!!

ayah sakit gigi

2009-02-13T02:18:00.003+08:00

ketika itu aku sedg sibuk melayari internet, tbe2 terdgr seperti org mengerang kesakitan. ayah rupenye. cepat2 aku pegi kat ayah. ibu time tu, dh lama dibuai mimpi.

aku: ayah, nape ni? sakit gigi ke?
ayah: aduh, tbe2 sakit sgt! berdenyut2.
aku: dh mkn ubat lom? nk kumur dgn air garam?

aku rase dahsyat juga sakit gigi ayah kali ni. dahla gigi geraham yg sakit, lagila..adoii! tak penah aku tgk ayah mcm kesakitan yg amat sgt.kecuali time ni ngan time ayah kne operation msukkan besi kat buku lali sbb main golf dulu. kesian plak aku tgk ayah. ngilu pulak gigi aku ni. ya Allah, Kau ringankanlah beban yg dtanggung oleh ayah.

Alhamdulillah, lepas kumur air garam tu, kurang sikitla sakit gigi ayah. kemudian, ayah pun sambung tdur. aku? msih lagi melayari internet. ahaha!

hari yang malas

2009-02-13T01:58:00.003+08:00

today, again..aku bangun lmbt. biasala, ble lagi nk tdo lame2 klu bukn wktu holiday mcm ni. hehe! bgun2 je, of cozla ibu and ayah dh pegi keje. ari ni, ayah pegi meeting kat putrajaya. kunun2 nk ikut, lpas tu plan tgk wayang ngan nisa. cite upin ipin. ahaha! tapi dsbbkan esok nak pegi lgkawi, plan pun tak jadi. alamak, bru terigt! baju blom packing lagi. adeh! ibu pula mybe blik lmbt coz ade jamuan makan.

seharian aku memboring kan diri di rumah. lunch ari ni bwat 'nasi kukus campur'. pelik, tetpi benar. ak kukus sayur semlm yg tak abes tu and kukus jagung ngan goreng telur. leps tu aku gaulkan dgn nasi. jadila 'nasi kukus campur'! ah, asal bleh mkn..ok je.

jam menunjukkan pukul 9.30 mlm. ibu ngan ayh tak blik2 lagi. alamak, cuak la plak. dh la seblah umah ak jadi construction site. lapar punye psl, ak kukus jagung lagi. kali ni buat ala2 corn cup plak. mcm ni rupenye:baru je nak mule melantak, tbe2 ibu ngan ayah blik. srentak pula tu. mcm dh janji je. ahaha!

tidur siang

2009-02-11T03:46:00.006+08:00

hurm..
pagi ni pegi tman ayah g klinik gigi. ayah sakit gigi rupenye. satu pagi tggu, just nk buat appointment utk buln depan. aduh! mase terbazir begitu shj. besides, aku pegi amek gmbr utk bwat lesen kete. tension btol! tak chantek btol gmbr tu. pencahayaan kurg bagus,pkrja x mesra.

Dear apek,
tutup je la kedai gmbr tu.

haha! btw, blik je umah, ak tgk tv. tbe2 mate ni mengantukla pulak. ah, sudah..pinggan tak bsuh lagi. huhu. kire2 pukl 2.30 tu aku pun tertdo. sedar2 je dh pukl 6. lame gile ak tido! pling lame since cuti skola ni. yela, duk umah sorg, xde spe nk kaco aku tido. puas2!

malamnye, aku telh mmbuat conference bersame2 nik, nisa, bear, suk and sorg mamat dari holland ni. boring btol ngan mamat yg nmenye bastiaan a.k.a bas ni..asyik2 ckp cmni:

bas: so any question u want to ask about me?

bajet selebriti pulak. ble ckp melayu sket terus upset. last2 die ckp 'u are boring'..
kureng jer! ah, die tu yg boring tak sedar plak.

then, ak teruskan bersosial dgn join chatbox kat forum 1991. main teka-teki, cte2 hantu, cte pindah2. smpi kul 3.45 rasenye. still, ak xbleh tdo..jadi aku pun tulis la blog ni..
hurm, leps ni nk kene try tido ni!

blink-blink

2009-02-09T17:06:00.003+08:00

salam..
pagi ni aku bgun dgn perasaan malas. malas gler. bgun2 je sakit perut. rse mcm msuk angin. ni msti sbb tido tak pakai selimut. then, dh bgun tu buatla keje mcm biase. kemas dpur, bsuh kain..hurm, mmg seswai la klu nak buat menantu..ahaha!

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hoho..blink2 henpon aku. tgk2! hehe~

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ngee :D

lempeng susu

2009-02-08T10:37:00.000+08:00

salam..
hari ni aku bgun awal la jugak. kire2 pukul lapan, ibu kejut:

ibu: adik, bgun..kate nak buat lempeng.

huh? alamak lupe pulak. aritu, aku try buat pankek (name komersial lempeng, hehe!)..sekali rasenya boleh tahan la. thnks to recipe yg aku amek dri internet. berguna jugak men komputer ni, bleh pandai masak. ahaha!

so, leps mndi tu terus siap-sedia nak 'jadi chef'. tgh prepare2 ingredients tu tibe2:

ayah: dik, resipi ni utk brape org?
aku: utk 3-4 org la..
ayah: haaa..klu cmtu, kene doublekan..
aku: hurm, nnti lari la..tkut tak jadi pulak..
ayah: ala..takpe..try je. ayah nak gi pasar. balik je,msti siap tau..

ok, dgn penuh kudrat, aku pun star la buat lempeng tu. tgh nak kaco2 mixture tu, tbe2 mesin mixture tu buat hal la plak..aduh! trpkse la kaco dgn tenaga tgn. lepas dh siap msk satu, tros aku makan..nak rase la..hehe."hurm, sedap juga. okla ni"..dan aku teruskan proses memsknye.

ibu and ayah dh blik. tak sabar2 nak mkn. ayah cakap, lempeng aku mcm kat hotel la. hehe! kembg kempis idung! Alhamdulillah, sekali lagi percubaan aku utk msk lempeng menjadi dan mendpt pujian..hehe! ni yg makin semgt nak msk lagi!

spaggeti?

2009-02-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

oops. alamak ade pembetulan sket..

spaggeti tu salah eja la pula. maklumla orang dah tak skola la katakan. haha!

*spaggeti: spaghetti

intro

2009-02-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..jawab jgn tak jwb..hehe

hurm, tibe2 tak tau nak tulis ape. rase mcm blank pula. ni kali pertama aku tulis blog. i'm not a good writer though. argh, nape ni? pening btol nak pikir ayat. aduh!

btw, today is hari yang best..kenape? sbb ari ni aku lulus ujian komputer! wlpun msih mcm ketinggalan sket, tak ape..asalkan lulus..

oh, pagi tadi telefon auni. lame betul kitorg sembg.

auni: bella, ape yg bella msukkan klu nak msk kuah spaggeti?

aduh! the last time aku msk spaggeti, aku sndiri pun tak selera nak makan..
hurm, lepas ni kene la blaja memsk. ye la, dh beso! bpe thun lagi je nk kawen. ahaha!