Wednesday, October 31, 2012

anda galau? anda tidak keruan?

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Firstly, alhamdulillah, exam's over and OSCE's result is out. Whatever the result is; always remember

 "Saya taktaulah ni nikmat or ujian, tapi saya bersangka baik sahaja kepada Allah" :)

Btw, had my first part of  lembu untuk qurban this year. Alhamdulillah, umur dah almost 21 baru nak qurban. Dulu saya ingat bapak2 or mak2 je yang selalunya qurban. Tapi, hikmahnya saya duduk kat bumi Yogyakarta ni, dapatlah membiasakan diri dengan qurban pada usia2 yang actually tak berapa nak muda ni. Anda  bila lagi? Jom pakat ramai2 kumpul duit untuk qurban next year! :)

And then, I don't know why suddenly tetiba kegalauan melanda this week. I dont really know how to define GALAU. I think it's like 'tidak keruan' or 'tak tau nak buat ape walaupun banyak benda kene buat' or 'rasa susah hati sebab rase mcm kene kawen sekarang, tapi takda calon'..(okay itu contoh ya! contoh!) or apa-apa jenis keserabutan kat otak, mengikut situasi masing-masing. hoho
Saya galau tawuuuu! galau!

Saya pun galau jugakkkk! nak nangis! T.T

Jadi dalam kes saya, mungkin saya akan mengambil definisi GALAU yang bermaksud 'tidak keruan'. Saya taktaulah ape kena dengan saya. Makan banyak, tidur banyak, malas banyak. Mungkin ade kecacatan kat Mutabaah Amal saya kot and saya perlu muhasabah diri bebanyak kot. bukan kot, memang perlu pun!

Sejak kebelakangan ni bumi jogja ni panas bebeno. Lagi panas daripada time musim kemarau dulu. Bahangnya ya Allah..berminyak-minyak muka bila bangun tidur. Malam semalam pun sama, dahlah panas, galau pulak tuh. Atas katil ade baju2 yang fresh dari ampaian and of courselah nak kene lipat. Tapi dengan kegalauan yang melanda, saya rasa mcm takde mood nak buat ape-ape. Nak tidur, dah banyak tidur. Sah! Ini budak memang galau!

At last, saya buka la lappy. Buka windows media player. Ingat nak cari lagu-lagu yang slow. Lagu-lagu yang saya rasa bila saya dengar bolehlah menenangkan hati yang galau. Tapi tengah pilih-pilih tu ternampak list bacaan quran. Terdetik hati nak pasang Al-Mulk kemudian surah-surah yang seterusnya. Subhanallah, alhamdulillah, kegalauan tadi *chennnggg chengggg!* bertukar menjadi satu ketenangan. Rasa bersemangat nak buat keje semua. Teringat dalam Quran, Allah cakap dalam surah Ar-Rad : 28;


 الَّذِيْنَ ءَامَنُوْا وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوْبُـهُمْ بِذِكْرِ اللهِ أَلا بِذِكْرِ اللهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوْبُ
28. (yaitu) orang-orang yang beriman dan hati mereka manjadi tenteram dengan mengingat Allah. Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah-lah hati menjadi tenteram.


"Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah, hati menjadi tenteram"

Sweetnya Allah tu, dalam kegalauan, Dia detikkan hati saya untuk mendengar ayat-ayat suci-Nya sebab Dia tahu itulah yang saya sedang perlukan sekarang. Subhanallah.


p/s: jadi anda galau? anda tidak keruan? Saya pasti anda tau apa yang anda perlu lakukan! :)

Friday, October 12, 2012

nama baru belog saya?

Assalamualaikum.

I don't know why, but tetiba rasa macam nak renovate my blog. The layout and all.
*Ohhh of course! Time-time nak dekat exam and with things around lah baru rajin nak melekat kat blog kan?

Okay, for the time being, I'm thinking of ermm changing my blog's name. from living room to hurmm

"under construction?"

eheh. *still thinking*

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

some miscellaneous things.

Assalamualaikum.
Okay today I feel like talking about some miscellaneous things.

#1
Been busy since I came back from Eid holiday. Palliative care conference, MSK (though i dun really know what my role actually is), Sambutan Hari Raya (this one is a big one) and taraaa.."WEEK 5"! And I was like, "whaaaat? exam is in 2 weeks je lagi!" T_T

#2
Lost my passport back in Malaysia. Also, lost my permit and stuffs. Really, much thanks to the burglars (desperately want to kick you in the face..oops). Still, until today, my KITAS (a temporary stay permit) has not been settled yet. You know, it has been 9 times I went to the immigration office. Next visit would be the 10th!

#3
Woke up in one morning, only to be acknowledged that "Many people say susah if kahwin dengan doktor. Nanti jarang balik rumah. Kemas rumah, masak nanti husband yang kena buat". Broken-hearted. Sabar ye wahai para doktor!

#4
Made my first short film "Ini Kisah Aku" for the Hari Raya event. Well, basically the message is seriously a big reminder for me. I guess I was kind of away from the track. I spend most of my time with this and that. But this heart really hopes that Allah may accept them as ibadah. Amiinn. Btw, do watch it here; Ini Kisah Aku . It is about a journey of a Rp2000 (sama dgn 80sen cmtuh) Semoga bermanfaat. :)

#5
Got a bad news. Most part of me says it's not true. But I don't know. Ya Allah, semoga semuanya baik-baik sahaja.

#6
Being mad at someone but I feel bad about it at the same time.

#7
Rindu rumah. Tetibe. My parents had just moved into a new house in JB. Can't wait to see my room! Seriously dekat dengan Danga Bay. Bolehlah turun Singapore pasni. Hee!

#8
Research oh researchhhh! *pening*

#9
It's time for me to, you know increase my speed in this track. When I was asked to handle that particular thing, I was like.."Ya Allah, layak ke aku?" I'm afraid that I am not good enough at DF-ing people. But, got some words from a friend "Give it a try. Usaha je. Allah yang ketuk hati tu..tapi dalam masa yang sama kena tambah ilmu and amal tu" Thanks love! Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan. Amin.

#10
Read my friends' blogs talking bout Jatuh Cinta yang pertama dengan Allah. Hmm. Rase macam kena tembak sekejap. Jom sama-sama cari saat2 tu balik. T_T

#11
Should be married on my birthday this year coz the date would be "211112". Awesome kan? Kikiki..:P

c'est tout! (that's all)