grateful, i am.

Assalamualaikum.

the missing blogger is now back in town. hihi

So here i'm writing, distracted by this blogging thingy, makes me away from my lecture slides.

oh, ya exam is in 3 days. THREE DAYS! ok, whatever. let the story begin;

err..may i scream "ALHAMDULILLAH" as loud as i can? please, pretty please please?
Ya, Allah thanks for everything around me, good things, bad things..i believe they are tests for me to get closer to you.

As long as I live, i've never been in this feeling. the feeling of too grateful that I wanna cry badly.

I have lots of good things happen around me.

Parents that love me although they are far away from me. My sisters and my only brother. Thank you Allah for them.
Friends that I could keep. Friends that always stay with me, be the shoulder to cry on. Thank you Allah for them.

Mama2 usrah saya and Bulatan Gembira saya. weee:D those yg always witness my tears. Sorry for being emotional time2 "qordhoya". Thank you Allah for them.
My hamsters and their babies. so cute that I wanna squeeze them.

My life, that is way better than those on the streets, waiting people to give a few rupiahs. And the scholarship, education, scooter. etc etc.

Ya Allah terlalu banyak nikmat yang Allah bagi. Countless! 

 ''Dan jika kamu menghitung-hitung nikmat Allah, niscaya kamu tidak dapat menentukan jumlahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah benar-benar Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.'' (QS An Nahl [16]: 18)

I believe that you guys own so many things. maybe much much more than what I got. jom duduk sejenak and think "have we said Alhamdulillah for all those things?"

But sometimes, something went wrong, something went missing, something was taken away. 

but we feel sad badly as if everything was gone. And na'uzubillah, we blame Allah for that, questioning 'Why is this happening, why i couldn't get what I wished for? Why Allah? Why?

but Allah says 

"...boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak Mengetahui." (Al-Quran Surat Al-Baqarah Ayat 216)

Sometimes what we wished for is not beneficial for us, but we just don't know it yet.
For example, I wished I am even richer than Bill Gates, that sounds beneficial for me right? And if Allah granted my wish, oh yeaaah, I'm gonna have lots of money, I can buy this and that, I can fly to whenever I want..bla bla..
but Allah knows best. maybe if I am that rich, I would forget who I am. I would forget my Creator and that would be totally maleficient! TOTALLY! (p/s: it's just an example)

I wanna share this story, heard it from someone. About a sahabat of Rasulullah, if I'm not mistaken.
There was a ceremony back in that time. And a some kind of pudding was served, but a sahabat didn't want to eat it.

Another sahabat asked "why didn't you eat the pudding?"

The-I-dont-want-to-eat-pudding-sahabat said "I dont wanna eat it because I am afraid I won't be grateful if I had only a glass of plain water next time"
The-another-sahabat replied "Are you silly? We should be grateful for sekecil mana pun nikmat Allah"

The pudding signifies something yang WOW and the plain water, well it's just plain. The sahabat afraids that bila dia dah dapat something yang WOW, and the next time dia dapat something yang plain, he won't be grateful. That's not the way it is. Supposedly, anything yang Allah bagi, kita mesti bersyukur sebenarnya. Sekecil mana pun. Maybe now, we always sleep on the bed, but in anytime, we would need to sleep on a thin mat. Alhamdulillah, we still have place to sleep.

"I wished for a car. but I got a scooter instead. Alhamdulillah."

I'm not good at story telling, but I hope you get the point. Thank you.